Jace's pov
Ugh, where's my binder? Why can't I find it? I stopped and looked in the mirror. Why was I born like this? Why do I have to go through this. It's so annoying. I felt a tear slide down my cheek. All I could feel right now was an over whelming amount of dysphoria. I could already tell today, was going to be a bad day. Why did it have to be me. Weak, stupid, me. I'm not a real boy, and I never will be. I started to search my room for my blades. Quickly I managed to find one hissed in my drwar. I pulled it out and looked at it for a minute. What and I doing? I promised Sean. But I bet it would feel sooo good right now.
"Babe, what are you doing with that?" I heard Forests voice ask
I put the blade back in the drwar. "Nothing." I said hugging my knees into my chest, tears still rolling down my cheeks
"Here baby. Figured you might want this." Forest said softly passing me my binder
"Why did we have to be born like this? It's so fucking unfair." I cried putting my binder on
"I don't know Jace. I honestly wish I did know." Forest said I could hear the sadness in his voice
"I mean, why did the world was to fuck us over so much!? What's wrong with us? Why. Can't. We. Just. Be. Fucking. Normal!" I yelled hitting my wall
"Babe, c-calm down." Forest said. He honestly sounded a little scared.
"This stupid fucking world! Filled with God damn cunts! And transphobic assholes!" I yelled louder, hitting the wall harder. This is when Sean ran in
"Jace, calm down bud." He said softly
"Fuck this god damn world! Why me God damn it! Why me!" I yelled hitting the wall as another tear fell down my face. "Stupid fucking mother nature! God damn cunt!"
"Jace"
"No, shut up Sean! I don't need you trying to tell me how amazing this god damn work is! I don't care how many people care about me! It's the ones that don't that I have to fucking listen to!" I yelled
"Jace. You need to calm down." Sean said grabbing my shoulder
I reached out and smacked Sean, instantly feeling regret and guiltyness spread across my chest. I collapsed on the floor and just started crying. I curled up into a ball and pushed myself into the corner of my room. Sean walked over and sat next to me and ever so slowly, he reached over and hugged me. I threw my arms around his neck and cried. I clung onto him as if the world was falling apart around me and he was the only think left that I knew. Sean heals out his hand and a bottle of water, I took the pill in his open hand and then continued to hug him. I have a therapy appointment soon because it doesn't seem like the meds are working anymore. Forest wanted to come with. First, I had to get through my morning. After I calmed down I finished my morning routine. Mark made Forest, Sean, and I some breakfast. It was dick shapped pancakes, with melted white chocolate coming out of the tip, with a glass of juice. Sean just shook his head and smiled. At first Mark looked very concerned about the forming bruise on Sean's face but Sean just gave him a reassuring smile and he ignored it a little more.
"So Jace, how's the pride parade coming along. Any news?" Mark asked
"Not yet. Why, are we gonna March in it this year?" I asked
"Yeah, why not. I mean, your father and I are gay, you and Forest are trans, you and Forest are pansexual." Mark said
"Good point." Sean laughed
"Sounds fun to me." Forest said smiling
"Holy balls." I said
"What babe?" Forest asked
"It's June. The school year is almost over. This year went by fast." I said in disbelief
"That's cause it's been an amazing year little dude." Mark said laughing
"Yeah, I guess." I smiled as Forest kissed my cheek
"Alright you two, time for school." Sean told us
I ran upstairs and grabbed mine and Forests backpacks, and our phones. We ran out to the bus and went to school. I had the perfect idea for today. I was going to make a "promposal" for Forest. I had a baseball in my backpack and I knew what I wanted to write on it. "I may strike out in asking, but will you be my catch to prom?". I know he'll get it. He went to so many of my softball games this year that I'm fairly sure he knows more of the vocabulary than I do.
"Jace." Forest said smiling
"Yeah?" I asked
"They're making fun of a kid up there for being gay." Forest told me pointing a few seats ahead on the bus
"You're just a little fag." I heard one say
"No wonder nobody likes you, you're a fag." I heard another spot
"Hey!" I yelled getting their attention. "I'm gay and transgender. Why don't you pick on me?!"
"Ah... Well....ahhh." one stuttered
"Because you know I'll kick the shit out of you. Don't get on my bad side. I'll still beat your ass." I said sitting back down
Once I sat back down I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down before I did something stupid. Forest held my hand while I did this. God he's so perfect. Soon after that the bus stopped at the school and we all got off. The kid that I stood up for was waiting to talk to me I guess.
"Hey umm, Jace, right?" He asked
"Yeah. And you're Hayden, you're in grade 7, right?"
"Yeah. I just wanted to say thanks for standing up to those assholes." Hayden said
"No problem man. They're in my class so I know how they can be. I've beat a few of them up over the past year. They're pretty much afraid of me." I told Hayden
"Makes sence. I had the same kind of reputation in my old school." Hayden smiled
"I bet, you seem pretty cool. We should hang sometime." I suggested
"Babe, the bell went. We're gonna be late if we don't get going." Forest told me
"Okay, I'm on my way. Guess I have to go man. Find me at recess." I said walking away
I walked up class and sat next to Luc with Forest on my other side. Then the worst possible person walked in.
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Hayran KurguThis story is about Sean, Mark and their children they adopt later in the book. It's about how they all grew up. Let's see where the story leads us
