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Chapter 3

I woke up this morning and made my way to the kitchen.

Do you drink coffee? Seán asked
I jumped. Jeez Seán. Yes caffeine, please. I said
Easy to scare I see. Seán stated
Yep. That's me. Where's Mark? I asked
Recording. Seán answered
Fun. I said
Wanna listen to some music? Seán asked
Sure. What about Three Days Grace- Lost In you? I suggested
Yah, sure. Seáns said as he found it on YouTube

I began to sing along to the song. When the song ended Seán looked at me astounded.

What? I asked
You-
I know, I'm horrible. Sorry you had to hear that. I just-
Hey, don't doubt yourself so much, you sound amazing. Seán told me
Thanks. I said tucking a peace of hair behind my ear.
Racesa, I know about what happened. I just really want you to know that no matter what Mark and I will never return you. We love you, even if you've only been her for a short time. I know it'll be harder for you to adjust to everything than it will be for us. My biggest fear when you moved here was you not liking the fact we were dating. When we found out we were getting you we almost cried. Leaving the exact same comment on every video, we always saw it but just didn't know what to say. Every time I wanted to put it in a reading your comments video but I again just didn't know how to react. Every time I read it I cried. Let me see your hand. I passed him my hand and he washed off the concealer. All those scars and cuts, all from the pain of the past. Let those cuts turn to scars, let all those scars not remind us of the past but show us that we can be strong even if we feel small and weak. Seán said

I just hugged him. I didn't know what else to do. I was so scared what he'd say when he found out. I was terrified. How did he know? I don't understand how he knew I had cuts there. I guess he could tell I was confused because he hugged me a little tighter and told me it would be okay. I began to feel tears sting my eyes. I tried to hold them back but I just couldn't. Soon I was sobbing in Seán armes. Eventually he calmed me down and I helped him make some bacon, eggs, and some toast for when Mark got out of recording. They haven't told the fans about me yet but Mark said they were going to very very soon. Seán said they had told the fans they were going to adopt a girl but they didn't know who yet. Soon I got a ding from my phone telling me Mark had uploaded so I went in to get him. I walked back the hall and slowly opened the door.

Mark? I asked
Yes chiki? He asked
Sean and I made some brunch if you wanna come eat. I told him
Okay, I'll be out in a minute. He said

I walked back out to the kitchen where Seán was dishing out the food we had made and placing it on the table. I sat down and so did Seán; soon enough Mark came out and sat with us too.

So, Mark are we still having that party tonight? Seán asked
What party? I asked confused
Oh, Sean and I invited a bunch of our friends over to meet you. Mark explained
O-okay. I said with a little bit of a shaky breath
What's wrong? Seán  asked
N-nothing. I said
Racesa? Marks asked
I-it's nothing I just, I'm not extremely comfortable around new people. I said
Okay, that's perfectly fine. We can cancel the party if you would like? Mark offered
N-No! Please don't let me spoil the fun. I enjoy parties. I'll give it a shot. I said
Okay, it's after supper. Seán said
Okay. I said

After we finished eating I walked back to my bedroom. I looked through my cloths and pulled out a green kind of frilly dress that Molly grabbed for me (dress above), I liked that I had short hair right now though, it looked like Seáns, but it's dyed like Marks used to be, it's all galaxy, because why not. I put on some white eye shadow and some pinkish lipstick with a pair of black flats. I looked at myself in the mirror. Ugly. I am completely and utterly ugly. I hate myself, I mean, look at that belly fat. The scars on my back and the cuts on my wrist. I grabbed a razor blade and drug it across my skin a couple times. Then the doorbell rang. I quickly cleaned myself up and went downstairs. There was Bob, Mandy, Wade, Molly, Felix, Marzia, Evan from Vanossgaming, Sydney, and this boy, I had no idea who he was. He had red hair, green eyes, a leather jacket, jeans, a napa hat, tanned skin, black and gold headphones around his neck, and a smile that kills. I walked down to Mark and Seán who were wearing tuxes.