My Hero (Natsu x Reader)

A Night With A Boy Pt 5.

I unlocked the door, but I didn't open it.
"You ok?" Natsu asked I gave a slight nod. But didn't make a move to open the door. I breathed in, what I'm about to do is going to be the biggest mistake of my life. "Are you sure?" He asked I nodded again. I gripped the doorknob. I let out a breath then turned around. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him in. Our lips locked together for a second before I pushed him away.
"I-I'm sorry," I said, then opened the door, and ripped the key out of the doorknob. I ran upstairs. "Down that hallway is your room," I shouted, then locked myself in my room. I blushed heavily. "Ah!" I squealed. "What the hell did I just do?" I asked myself. I fell on my bed and covered my face. I groaned. My phone started ringing. I looked at it, it was Lucy. I sighed at answered.
"Girl, Natsu just called me. He was freaking out, what happened?" She asked,
"I kissed him," I said. "I grabbed his collar and fucking kissed him."
"Girl!" She screamed.
"No, stop." I said, "I can't believe I did that." I sat up and looked out my window. "I'm more embarrassed than I was when we were dancing."
"Dude, you did it." She said, "you didn't tell him your feelings, but you showed him how you felt."
"I didn't know how I felt till yesterday Lucy." I started, then rubbed my face. " I'm lost, I don't know what to do."
"You need to go downstairs and talk to him." She said, "He thinks you're mad at him. Please just go downstairs and talk to him like a regular human being." She said,
"Lucy." I said, "I can't do that." I paused and bit my lip. "I can not face him. He's my friend, and I know you told me he had feelings for me too, but I don't want to lose our friendship. I don't want to mess this up, Lucy."
"Is it your friendship that you're worried about or the fact that he's staying with you for the next two weeks?" She asked, my heart stopped.
"H-How do you know about that?" I asked she chuckled.
"That was Natsu's excuse on why he doesn't want to talk to you about his feelings." She said, I sighed and looked at my ceiling.
"Of course he said that," I mumbled. I looked at my door.
"Please go and talk to him." She said, "it's late, and I have to go. So talk to him, goodbye little lady." She made a kissing sound and hung up. I looked at my phone and sighed. I jumped when there was a knock at my door. I knew who it was. I panicked and jumped off my bed.
"Y/N. I want to talk." Natsu said,
"Oh shit," I whispered. I fixed my hair, then went over and grabbed the doorknob.
"Please don't say anything about what happened earlier," I begged.
"I won't, I promise." He said. I breathed in and opened the door. We looked at each other. Neither of us talking or moving. We just stared into each other's eyes. He wanted to walk up to me, or something because he was fidgeting.
"I know I said not to talk about it, but I'm really sorry about earlier and I don't have an excuse for doing what I did. And I completely understand if you're mad, or if you want to hit me or absolutely do not feel the same way." I said, then slowly looked at him. His eyes were wide. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out. He thought for a second.
"I'm not mad." He started, then paused. "I'm just confused."
"Confused?" I asked. "W-Why are you confused?"
"Your feelings." He said, "Your feelings are confusing me. First, we're dancing, then next thing you push me away because of a look Lucy gave you? Then you literally just kissed me, then ran away. I thought I did something wrong Y/N." He said I fidgeted with my fingers. "You need to tell me how you actually feel, please." He begged. That's the thing, I didn't know how I felt. I feel like twenty emotions bunched together.
"I don't want to say the wrong thing," I said, he went up to me and grabbed my hands.
"It's impossible for you to say the wrong thing," he said, I looked at our hands, this didn't feel right.
"I can't tell you how I feel," I said, tears forming in my eyes lids. Cause if I did tell him, he would hate me for who knows how long. He might think I was leading him on, he might think I was teasing him this entire time. He looked at me confused.
"What do you mean?" He asked. I looked down.
"I can't do this with you," I said without looking at him. His hands loosened.
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I regret writing every word for this chapter 😂.  Ughhhhhh guysss. Why did I do this to you and myself?? 😂😂😂😣😣