His protection program

What do you want

Luca is in the office working and I'm itching to do something so I get up and grab the bed sheets off Luca's bed adding them to the laundry basket in his bathroom and start dragging the basket to the laundry room to get it done. I'm half way there when Luca comes walking out looking mad. "What on earth are you doing?" I look up at him confused.  "My job?" He shakes his head. "I'll do it." Before he can grab the basket I pull it away. "Luca let me do it." He looks angry and takes the basket from me. "I don't want you opening your stitches." I understand his idea but I'm being careful and I need to do something.

"Luca your letting me stay here and you have covered all my medical bills and you have fed me every meal. I need to do something, I need to work otherwise you will need someone else and I'll be back on the street." Luca looks up at me as if I have hit him in the face. He takes my hands off the laundry and drags me to the lounge.

"We need to talk. A long talk. Emily I don't want you as a cleaner or a cook. I want you as mine. My woman. Building a home and family here. I thought you got that believe me I don't kiss workers normally. You can do anything you want study or work or just stay home." I knew we were something but I didn't think he would be this open. "Emily what do you want?" I'm honestly not sure. Luca left me to think since he didn't want to push me and that I did but I'm not sure he would be happy where my thoughts went.

I go to my room and pack the couple of personal items in a bag before grabbing paper and a pen:

Dear Luca

By the time you read this I will be gone. Please don't search for me. You told me what you wanted and believe me for a short minute I allowed myself to indulge in that fantasy and it was heaven. You are a dream come true.

I can't be what you want me to be. After everything that has happened I'm not sure if I'll be able to be what you need. You deserve someone who is not broken. And I honestly hope that you find her.  Ian broke me down but you Luca, god you woke me up again. Before you try and convince me that I'm wrong hear me out.

1. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be intimate with anyone. 2. You want a family and after what happened with Ian cutting my pregnancy out of me I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to do that.

Luca you are amazing and I wish only amazing things for you.

I love you. I know Ive never said that before but I wanted you to know.

I'll miss you
Emily

I placed the letter on his pillow before moving out the front door and starting to walk down the driveway. When I get to the gate buzz cut is standing there and I ask him to let me out. He looks confused but does as asked and I start my walk away from happinesses.