BLOOD and Revenge

Chapter 24: Say What Now?

My blood ran cold and for a moment I was sure time had stopped. It wasn't until James pulled back with terror on his face and his eyes back to normal that I realized just how crazy this was.

"M-Mates?" I covered myself with my arms the best I could and lowered myself until I sat on the ground, the air of the night brushing against me. He couldn't be my mate. He couldn't. Werewolves and vampires can't be mates. It has never happened before.

"I.. Um.." He couldn't find words and before I could say much more he himself leaned against the adjoining building and lowered himself to the ground like I currently was. This couldn't possibly be true. Maybe his wolf is just messing with me...

"That- This can't be true. I'm a vampire. You are a werewolf.." His eyes glowed with his wolf but his face told me that he was still himself.

"I don't know. He never admitted that until now." Mates? It just can't be true.

"Is that what you've been trying to hide from me?" His eyes narrowed at me in question.

"Hiding what?" Finding courage, I crawled toward him and only paused when my face was mere inches from his.

"Is... Is what you said true? That I am your soul mate?" I watched with anticipation as he swallowed hard and met my eyes with a heated look.

"Yes." I sat back again between his legs and tried to find a way to understand what I was feeling. I couldn't help the feeling that I finally knew his weakness... but at the cost of his love for me.

"James, is there any way that your wolf could be wrong? Like he just thinks I am but really I'm not?" His irises flashed at me and I watched as his wolf surged forward to pull my face to his as he connected our lips.

"I'm not wrong." A wolf's inner beast never lied. I was his in his mind and there would be no changing that.

James's face was holding nothing in as he let his passion for me known. Not only was he trying to claim my lips but also pull me more to him.

In a moment of lust I forgot to hold my spell up and it dropped, everything about me oozing vampire. The wolf I was connected to pulled away quickly and even jumped up and away from me. The love that was once on his handsome features was now morphed into a look of not only confusion but disgust.

A stake connected with my heart and with a tear or two and a sigh I stood and gave him a weak half-smile.

"You can love the wolf me but not the vampire me. I can't hide behind a mask for the rest of eternity James. This is who I am. And as I said before, I can't change this." He went to reach for me with his lips open prepared to speak but I shook my head and took a step back.

"Don't. I can't do this James. I just can't." He let his arm drop to his side and a look of regret and pain crossed his eyes.

"Halloween James. I will end all of this on Halloween. Weather you are ready or not will not be the issue. This will all be over soon. And once it is you will understand why I must do this, even if we are mates." I turned my back to him and tried to hold in the hiccup of a sob that was threatening to come out.

"What do you mean finish this? Finish what?" Swallowing my pain and hurt I looked back over my shoulder at him and let my eyes shine. 

"Enjoy being a wolf James, because you won't be for much longer." With that I walked away, not allowing him a chance to follow.

--- One Hour Later ---

Blood...... Blood. Blood! Blood! Blood! BLOOD!

My pain was driving me to feed and take the edge off but the command master had put in place was still strong within me and I fought to let myself feast on human blood. I looked up at the night sky to the half moon, tears in my eyes as I screamed at it as if it was the reason behind my problems.

"Why did you do this? Why did you pair us up? Why make it so that when he would accept me I wasn't even of the same species? WHY?" Crickets and silence met me and I wrapped my arms around my legs harder as I put my face in my knees.

Every part of me was trying to rationalize that James and I were meant to be by fate but the side of me that is a vampire is saying that he could never love the true me. Maybe if he was like me then it might work but it is all about how to do that. My blood is enough to turn any mortal into a vampire but master's blood has many thousands of years on me. Not only did he somehow turn me before my first shift as a wolf but the wolf blood that was in me was now morphed into that of not a wolf but mostly vampire.

I had thought about it and had come to realize that perhaps before a wolf's first turn that they are mostly human and that that first turn not only morphs their body but also their blood. That would mean that I was human before I became a vampire. But the blood of the wolf is still within me.

Maybe there is a way to trigger that wolf blood so that I can be both... If the wolf blood in me is strong enough to hold off master's commands for a few moments then perhaps the blood can be activated and I can have my own freedom again.

"But the only question is how?"

I don't have much time before Halloween so it will not be the easiest to figure it out but I am sure that soon I will come to understand what is about to occur. Because I am the first of a species and I refuse to think that there is only one way for me to get what I want. I looked up to the moon once more.

"But again... how?"