"Y/n what's wrong" I looked at my best friend as he was talking to me on FaceTime, "I don't know I just don't feel like I could be happy again, like my heart hurts for no reason and I just want to sit in a ball and cry all night" he gave me a smile
"Have you went to your doctor" I nodded and cried, "they want to put me on more medication like I already don't hate myself more for having to take some already. Do they know that not all medications work, I don't think it can help my thoughts and if it doesn't it isn't working for me" he nodded and walked to his room shutting his door.
"Do you want to come see me soon?" I nodded, "and Christina" she laughed "for sure, she will take you out on the town and y'all can get ice cream, tell me more about what's been going on" I cried harder.
"School, and life. I'm failing about two classes and it's stressing me out because it's like broader line failing so I can pull it up but my teacher wants me to stay after class on the days I have to be at work early" I took a deep breath as he smiled at me "what about talking a day off of work, getting your school pulled up then going home and taking a nice long bath. Maybe watch some tv and eat your favorite meal"
"If only, I need to work so I can't pay bills and I have to pay moms hospital bills so she can stay till she's recovered, which I mean it's kinda already paid for. And that a whole other thing, like I know she isn't doing as good as she says she is and I'm just scared and so worried for her"
"Okay well look, I want you and Christina down here Friday, don't worry about the flight I got it and you bills I got that too" I cut him "no no please don't do that corbyn" he laughed "too late, you really shouldn't leave you billing number so close to your phone, no I won't take any money from you but I better see you Friday"
I cried "thank you corbyn, thank you so much" he smiled at me, "you'd do the same for me but I have to run I'll call you tonight " I nodded "thank you again bye bye love you" he smiled "bye love you too"
Ever feel suffocated and just what somebody to pull you away from life? Same
