Glory is for Another Day // Lams Oneshots

Diary //Lams

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John hummed lightly as he folded Alexander's clothes. It was Saturday, and Alex had gone over to his office to pick up a few papers. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Until John started putting the clothes away.

He opened the top drawer and was surprised to see a small leather book sitting among the few shirts still lying there. He reached for the book, then paused as he wondered if it was personal. Maybe he shouldn't...

Nobody needs to know.

John picked up the book and flipped open to a random page towards the back.

7-6-17 (idk guys just ignore the date)

I was home with John all day. He took my laptop so I couldn't write at all, but in the end I wasn't upset that we had to spend the whole day together. He looks especially nice when the sun starts to set, not that he isn't beautiful the rest of the time.

John blushed. This was before they even started dating.

John fell asleep on me while we were watching Netflix, and he reminded me of an ocean somehow. It wasn't a hurricane ocean like I was used to imagining, it was calm and clear and filled with life. It was so... John.

He's adorable.

John blushed harder and flipped a month or so ahead.

I asked John out today. He said yes, and I really hope he likes me. Did he just accept as a pity date?  I hope not. A part of me can imagine us a long time from now, being old and always together. I would like that.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. I think I'll take him to ice-cream and then the park for our first date, he would like that.

A few weeks more.

John kissed me. He actually kissed me. I don't know what to do. I kissed back, but I think I might have been a little rough. I had just wanted that day for so long, it felt like a dream when it finally happened.

I guess he really does like me.

Weeks again.

I accidentally told John that I love him. We were talking about what we wanted to do for our careers and the rest of our lives, and I started talking about how I'd want to specialize in education related court cases.

He asked why.

"Well, you want to be a teacher, and since I love you and want to be near you, I think I'd like that region best."

I actually said that.

Gosh I'm an idiot.

But John said he loved me too. He started calling me Lex as well, but I think I like it coming from his mouth. His mouth... I liked kissing him too.

John laughed. Alex was so cute. John skipped through to his last entry, reading with increasing caution now.

Reading these last several entries, I noticed I've written almost exclusively about John. It's because I love him so much. He's my everything. He's the closest thing I've ever had to family.

I want him so bad. I want him by my side forever, I want to hold him whenever I reach out. I want him to be happy and him to love me too.

I'll protect him. He's my Johnny Boy.

John closed the book softly. Looking at it fondly until he heard a voice at the door.

"Ah, you like the read, Johnny?"

"Alex! I was just putting clothes up and it was in the drawer, I'm sorry if I invaded your space,"

"It's fine, Johnny," Alex walked into the room and took the book from him gently. "Did you like what you read?"

"I love you too, I love you so much,"

Alex opened his arms and John groaned softly as he burrowed into his chest. John relaxed at the contact, then wrapped his arms around Alex firmly.

"I'm never letting you go, Lex,"

"I hope, Johnny," he kissed John's head. "I would like that a lot,"

AN: Hello my people! Sorry I haven't been updating, but I had two anxiety attacks and have been on edge for the last few days. It makes it very hard to write. Love you all,

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