Glory is for Another Day // Lams Oneshots

After the Hospital //Lams

AN: trigger warning for a suicide attempt, probably suicidal thoughts. Stay safe babies❤️❤️❤️

John kept his eyes trained on the pavement, Lafayette trailing him closely and Hercules following after that. Hercules, worry in his eyes, leaned forward so he could whisper to Lafayette.

Lafayette nodded. "John, Alexander will be coming around to pick you up,"

John huffed. "He's at work, he doesn't have time,"

"He will always have time for you, ami,"

John huffed again, this time more of a sigh. He looked up as a black car swerved into the hospital parking lot at top speed.

The door flew open and a man leapt out of it, his clothes askew and his expression wrought with grief. He stopped in his tracks when he saw John, then started running again and swept the boy off his feet.

The man kissed John with all the passion he could muster, one hand around his neck and the other around his waist. This lasted a few seconds, then he pulled back a little so he could speak.

"John, baby, John, you're alive,"

John eased out of his grip, and the man looked confused. "Alexander..."

"Sweetheart, let's go home, we can talk as much as you want," Alexander wasn't one for many pet names, so this was testimony to his immense feeling.

John nodded duly and followed Alex to the car. Lafayette and Hercules stared after him, still worried and distressed, but returned to their own apartment.

The car ride was short and silent, Alex struggling to keep his eyes on the toad and John staring blankly out the window. He felt completely drained, as if there was no more emotion left inside him.

They pulled in the driveway and Alex opened John's door, offering a hand, which John took silently. Alex pulled him into a quick hug, then led him inside and sat down on the couch.

John refused to meet Alex's eyes, so Alex took his hand and began a gentle questioning. "Why'd you do it?"

"I...I couldn't stay here and burden everyone else with my mood swings and idiocy. I'm sorry I didn't make it,"

Alex's eyes widened. "John, no, never. You're not a burden, you're my boyfriend, and your friends love you. You have depression, and that's not your fault. We work as a team and we want to help you. And don't ever be sorry for not dying,"

John squeezed his eyes shut. "Shouldn't you be at work?"

"You're more important than anything I could be doing,"

"That was dumb of me, I should've just let you stay at work,"

"John, look at me,"

Alex put his hand under John's chin and lifted his face, then kissed him tenderly. John kissed back weakly, then found himself missing Alex terribly and grabbing him closer. He seized Alex's waist and Alex got the idea, pulling John into his lap and pressing against him firmly.

Alex tangled his fingers in John's hair and pulled back slightly, breathing heavily and his voice dropping to a whisper. "John, I love you. Please don't try something like this again, I'll never make it without you,"

"I won't, okay, I won't, I don't want to hurt you,"

"Good. Do you need sleep? Did you get medicine?"

"I'll have to take my pills later, but can we just lay here for a while unless you have to go to work?"

"I love you more than I'll ever love my work," Alex kissed his jaw softly. "We can lay here as long as you want,"

"Alex,"

"Yes, baby?"

"Am I yours?"

"What do you mean, love?"

"Do you love anyone else? Do you really love me?"

"I love no one else, and I would trade anything for you. You're mine for as long as you want to be,"

"Yours?"

"All mine," he growled sweetly and pulled John into his chest. "Is there anything else you want to tell me?"

"I love you. I love when you spend time with me. Would you please do more of that?"

"No more neglecting you, kitten. Let's go downtown this weekend, get a hotel, and spend a few nights there. I'll try to make up for lost time, alright?"

"You didn't do anything wrong,"

"Yes I did. I let my boyfriend, my whole life, almost kill himself. Do you need me to quit my job? I can find one that takes less time, or I can make money some other way,"

"No, you enjoy your job! It's what you went to college for, it's what your life depends on. Maybe just one day off, so I can get used to my meds, please?"

"Long weekend, then. Tomorrow's Friday, we do whatever you want, then we go downtown for the weekend. How's that?"

"Thank you so much Alex,"

"I'd do anything for you, hon, now get some rest. I'll wake you in a bit to take your pills,"

"Are you going to stay?"

John was still lying on Alex's chest, and Alex didn't seem as if he was about to loosen his grip. "I'm here,"

"Goodnight,"

"Goodnight, Love,"

AN: I'm too lazy and pissed off to edit it, sorry. Also, requests are open for more fics, now excluding jeffmads. I'll be starting a jeffmads oneshot book soon. Love,

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