The Trap House Imagines {COMPLETED}

Insecurities ~ Sam Golbach

Warning: Suicide
You were on your phone looking at comments on a picture you posted on Instagram with Sam. You and Sam decided to go public about your relationship and that didn't go so well. Everyone commented something mean. But some other people fought against them and accepted you guys together. Some people commented
Ugly
Fat
Sam deserves better than her
He can do so much better
All of this hurt you. You always had a problem with the way people commented on the way you looked. On your weight. On everything about you. You were the one always getting hurt in a photo. You were always criticized. And you hated it.
***
You were wearing a pair of Joggers, a sweatshirt, and a pair of socks. You went downstairs to get food. When you heard Sam talking to Colby.
"Yeah and She has gained so much weight."
You frown.
Was he talking about you?
"Dude. That's rude to comment"
You couldn't stand to hear anymore is you ran upstairs. You stayed  in your room not coming out. You just watched YouTube and Netflix in your TV not wanting to see Sam and him think you were gained too much weight. Although it hurt you for him to think that way, you knew he was right. That what he said was true. You decided to stand in the mirror and pulling up your shirt showing your stomach. You gasped at the sight of your stomach. You had gained weight. You collapse on the floor thinking to yourself if Sam would leave you because of this.
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Sam's POV
It has been days since Y/N has left her room. I had made dinner for your last night and the night before that and before that, but all she says is
I'm not hungry
I already ate
Or
I'll eat later
It got to the point where she wasn't even eating or leaving her room and I'm worried about her. I decided to check up on her. I took up a plate of fruit to her room for her to eat. I knocked on her door, but no answer. I just walked in and shut the door. The light wasn't on, no curtains were opened, and she was laying down on the bed. She was crying.
I set down the food and crawled on the bed next to her. I grabbed her and turned so she was facing me.
"What's wrong love"
She sniffed and looked down.
"You think I'm fat"
My heart dropped. She heard me. She heard me comment when I was talking to Colby. I frown.
"No baby. I don't. You heard wrong. I said that you gaining weight was a sexy thing because you're not a stick that I will break."
She shakes her head.
"Stop lying."
"I'm not. You are honestly Sexy I'm my eyes. Your thighs are sexy, So is your stomach, and everything else on your body. I love you. I'm sorry for her you heard"
She nods.
"It's ok."
***
Third POV
You nod.
"It's ok."
But it isn't. You knew he was lying and tried to make it seems like he didn't mean what he said. But you knew the truth. The truth of him not liking you for your weight. It hurt you for the fact that he commented to Colby about it than lied to your face. You hated the lies. You looked down and saw Sam sleeping holding onto you. You got out of his grasp and grabbed your car keys and left to go out on your own.
You decided to drive all the way to a bridge.
***
You go to it if your car and sat down on the edge of the bridge. You were thinking about all the things Sam lied about.
About how beautiful you are.
About how skinny you should be. But it was all lies. You knew Sam lied and decided to not listen to what he said. All your life people have made fun of you for your weight and for how you look.
You sigh and your phone went off. You grabbed out your phone and saw a notification:
Twitter: @MYMANISBIG69 commented- Fat ugly hoe, go die!
You stare at the comments and decided to tweet out something
@Y/USERNAME- No one else cares, so why should I
You got tons of comments max retweets.
@SAMISBAE- is she going to kill herself?
@MYDADDYCOLESPROUSE- I'm so happy she is killing her self. No one likes her.
@MYFAVORITESEXPOSITIONIS69- no one deserves to commit suicide. Everyone deserves a life. Don't take it away.
@SAMISNOTSINGLE- please don't kill yourself. I love you. Sam loves you. You don't need other people, don't listen to their comments.
@SOLBYGOLBROCK- SOLBY IS FOREVER GO KILL YOURSELF FOR STEALING SAM FROM COLBY YOU FAKE ASS WHORE BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@PILLOWSAREOVERRATED- KILL YOURSELF YOU FAKE ASS WHORE LOOKING BITCH ASS WHITE BASIC BITCH!!!! SUCK MY DOGS CRUSTY DUSTY WHITE DICK AND CHOKE AND DIE!!!!!!! 🐕🐕🐕🐕🐕
You frown at peoples comments. You decided one way, and one way only. You decided to listen to their comments. You stood up and took a picture of the bottom of the bridge were the water was and posted it on Instagram
@Y/USERNAME - Goodbye. I love you world.
You set your phone down and breath in and out. You knew you wanted to jump. It just wasn't happening. You went to the edge and looked down. It looked beautiful. You stepped back and closed your eyes. You couldn't control your feet and just fell. You turned so your back would hit the water first so when you landed on the bottom of the river your head would hit the rocks on impact. You fell with no regret.
Good bye world
Good bye haters
Good bye mom
Good bye dad
Good bye family
Good bye roommate
And
Good bye Sam
You though about Sam and your happy moments. You thought about Sam in your last moments of life. But then you thought about Sam lying to you. You opened your eyes before you could respond and try to turn and swim away you were hit with impact of the rocks. All of could see was blood. You noticed you did the right thing and moved because you only caused your leg and arm to start bleeding. You swim to the surface. You pulled out your phone.
(It was waterproof)
And saw comments.
Your beautiful don't kill yourself
You deserve apart on this Earth don't take  it away.
God put you on this Earth for reason don't take that reason away.
I'm coming to get you don't do anything please love. I love you.
You smiled a weak smile and couldn't believed you almost took your life. Because of a couple stupid comments. You frown and lay down on mud under you and think about what you did. You risked your life over a couple stupid comments. You cover your eyes and cry yourself silently thinking about it.
Thinking about Sam. What would've happened to Sam when he found out the love of his life killed herself.
You sat up and looked around.
"Y/N!"
You looked up and saw Sam. He collapsed. You saw him and ran.
You ran to him. You ran to him and he held out his arms to hold you and to hug you. You collapsed in his arms and you felt at home. You felt like you belonged.
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