"Nicole, do you want to come over to the boys' house?" Aislinn asked, "We decided that it would be better if we spent the day together after they left."
I sadly shook my head, "No, I'm fine. I'm just going to go home and watch the kids," I quietly said, as I started to push the stroller near the exit. Marie stopped me, "Nicole, are you going to be fine? I know that you and Niall are like really close, more compared to the others. I just don't want you to do anything that will hurt you when you're alone."
I knew that Marie was talking about cutting. I wasn't planning on doing that. Well, I was planning on crying, but that's normal. I just wanted to be alone. And, I didn't want to get Niall hurt, too, by my actions. Cutting wasn't one of my options.
"Marie, I'm not going to cut myself, I just want to be home alone," I replied, as I continued to try and push the stroller towards the exit of the airport, but the girls continued to follow me, "Are you sure, Nicole?" Eleanor asked. I nodded, not wanting to say anymore, because I could feel the tears starting to fall.
Suddenly, some paparazzi came over to us, "Can we ask you some questions?" They politely asked. This was different from their usual yelling all the questions at once. Eleanor nodded, "Sure, that's fine."
"So, what do you all think of the boys going on tour? How did you react to it?" one of the reporters asked. I turned away, not wanting to be the first to answer the question. Eleanor decided to be the first to speak up, "Well, I know I will miss Louis and the other guys, but I think this will be good for them. It will help boost their popularity, and besides, it's only four months. I'm used to Louis going on tour for eight months, this is much better than usual."
"It will be hard without Harry here, but I'm used to not seeing him for a while. I have school to catch up on, so I'm hoping that will help distract me from missing Harry."
"I'm going to be staying with Aislinn most of the time, so I can help watch Mason. Mason has gotten pretty close with me, so I'm hoping that he'll feel fine with just Aislinn and me here to watch him. Zayn has always been with him like every second of the day, so this will be different. I will miss Zayn, but I'm mostly just worried about Mason," Perrie said.
"Yeah, I'm worried about Mason, too. I think he'll be fine, though," Aislinn said, "Liam and I have had to gotten used to Liam leaving. I knew that it was all part of him being a celebrity. I will miss him with all my heart, but this is good for all of them."
All the reporters looked at me. I felt my heart swelling up as I tried to find the right words to say about Niall. I felt the tears threatening to spill over. Don't cry in front of them. I don't want that to get on the news.
"W-Well the news w-was shocking to me... I-I didn't want him to leave, b-but he is, so I can't change that. I-I love him so m-much and I-I wish he hadn't left," I quickly stopped myself when I said that I didn't want him to leave. I can't say that to the paparazzi! They will think I don't support his career, and I do!
"U-Um, I mean this is good for h-him," I whispered, "I-I want w-what he wants-" I was interrupted by tears falling down my face. Nicole, just act like they're not there, maybe no one will notice that you're crying, "I-It will be hard for the kids and m-me, but I-I'll be f-fine-" I couldn't take it anymore. I broke down sobbing in front of all the paparazzi.
Marie quickly wrapped her arm around my should, to comfort me, "It will be okay, Nicole," she whispered, "Let's just get home."
"Sorry, we have to go," Perrie quickly said, waving goodbye to them. Aislinn took the stroller for me, and we quickly walked out of the airport. We headed into the parking lot, getting more pictures of me sobbing from the paparazzi.
