Troubled souls

6 the paintings on the wall

"So what do you use this room for?" Buck asks " Why's it your safe room?"

"Because i come in here and no one can bother me I am, safe. I come here to express my feelings in a positive way. Instead of hurting or torturing myself, i channel the feelings into art."

Bucky looks up seeing the paintings one on each side of the tv on the wall

One being a painting of captain America's shield

The other...

Bucky's metal arm with the red star and blood running from it.

I followed Bucky's gaze seeing him looking at the painting

I gasp.

"Buck!" " I'm so sorry i forgot about that." I sighed

I walked over to the wall where the painting has lived since i moved in.

I pushed a chair over and took it down.

"Y/n what're you doing?"
"You don't have to take that down just because of me."

"Oh Bucky. it's not because of you or for you. I'm taking it down for me. i don't need it anymore. i used it as a way to remind myself my anger goes on the canvas and paper. not my body."

"I don't have anger towards you anymore so i don't need this up there anymore"

A single tear ran down and before it can even reach half way down my face, a warm gentle touch wipes it away and pulls me into a hug.

"Y/n it's okay I know. I hate me too."

I gasp again .

"James Buchanan Barnes!"
"I do not hate you. I was mad for so so long of course. But I don't hate you Buck i hate the winter soldier. You're not winter and winter is not you"
"Okay? So don't ever ever think that I hate you James. Ever."

"Thank you Y/n. thank you"

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"Y/n!"

"Bucky!?"

"Where are you?"

We hear Steve yell

"In here!"

Steve walks to where he hear you're voice come from and sees us in my safe room.

"What is this? I've never been in here? I didn't even know this room existed"

"No one does Steve."
"There's a reason for that. its my safe room. my brain basically lives in here."

"Then why are you guys in here if you don't mind my asking?"

"Because i thought Bucky could use some place for just him when he wants to be alone and not be bothered."

"What? y/n what are you talking about?" Bucky asks sounding very confused

I pull the clip with the key to my apartment and the key to the safe room from my belt loop and Handed them to Bucky.

"The blue key is my apartment key, and the green one is to the safe room."

"Come on follow me"

"This door"

Gestures to the door

"Is one of the two extra rooms i have."

"It's yours. Its right outside the safe room. My room is two doors up. you now have a key and a room and can come and go whenever you would like."
"By all means Buck, I'm not like forcing you to move in or anything and I'm not asking you to."
"I'm  just giving you the option of staying wherever you want to."

"late at night when I have my nightmares i come here and draw and it helps."

"I figured it would help you too. and having a warm bed an a room for privacy and space would help you."

"Thank you y/n. I can't thank you enough." Buck breathes out

He hugs me again. smiling a real smile for the first time since the 40s