After the dinner
They go back to her apartment to change their clothes and cuddle on the couch and watch movies.
She falls asleep on his chest
So he decides to carry her to the bed
He kisses her head and turns to leave. But she grabs his hand
"Stay" she whispers
He climbs into the bed with her. Holding on to her as if she would disappear if he let go.
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She wakes up in a cold sweat.
She can't breathe
She looks beside her to see Bucky sound asleep. He looks so peaceful.
She tries to go back to sleep but has no such luck.
She wiggles out of his arms carful not to awaken the sleeping soldier, and heads to the safe room. She gets an idea to help herself calm down.
Pulling the electric piano out from its hiding place under the couch.
It's hidden because
No one knows she can play
Or sing for that matter
She pulls out a note book. And starts to write. She pours her emotions out onto the page. Her inspiration? The super soldier out of his time that is sleeping in her bed. She finishes writing and begins to play the melody that helped sooth her
🎶🎹🎤
Yes, yes, I know
Yes, I know that when you hear this, you'll feel strange, I know
Still out of sight
But I've got this mouth that's full of dynamite, tonight, tonight
Lover, you're a soldier, you're a long, long way from home
A long way from your mother, and you do it on your own
I don't belong to you, and you don't belong to me
I don't think we need to, 'cause it's just so easy
So I survive
So I just try to get through and stay alive
You do the same
Do the same, I see you running through the rain
Lover, you're a soldier, you're a long, long way from home
A long way from your mother, and you do it on your own
I don't belong to you, and you don't belong to me
I don't think we need to, 'cause it's just so easy
I got lucky when you said sorry
And I couldn't stop now
If I knew how
And if it's true what they say about love and hard work, well, alright
'Cause maybe people in love are all on the same side when they fight
And everyone's raging and railing and screaming for war
But you haven't got anything that I would fight you for
To fight you
Lover, you're a soldier, you're a long, long way from home
A long way from your mother, and you do it on your own
I don't belong to you, and you don't belong to me
I don't think we need to, 'cause it's just so easy
Lover, you're a soldier, you're a long, long way from home
A long way from your mother, and you do it on your own
We can take our chances, 'cause we knew it going in
There'd be lots of dancing, but we'd never, ever play to win.
🎹🎤🎶
Bucky awakens to her not in the bed with him. He panics. Searching the house for her. Running around like a mad man, until he hears an angelic voice that makes his heart swell.
Tears in his eyes, he leans against the wall outside the safe room. (She accidentally left the door cracked open) Listening to her soothing voice. Her voice starts to crack
"Lover, you're a soldier, you're a long, long way from home
A long way from your mother, and you do it on your own"
She starts to loose it.
"Why. Why did this happen to him? He shouldn't have had to deal with this."
He can hear her throwing and kicking things.
"He should have been able to come home, from the war and have a family. He shouldn't have had to go through that. Why him God!? Why him?!?"
She sobs letting all the pinned up anger and aggression out, thinking Bucky's still asleep
She punches the wall and the entire tower shakes. Her knees trembling, her legs start go numb until she can't hold herself up . She falls to her knees sobbing.
"Why God?! why?!!"
He lightly knocks on the door
"Y/n?" "Baby?"
He peaks his head in the door.
Seeing her on her knees her body shaking with every sob.
She looks up when she feels him crouch down next to her.
"Hey doll, it's okay. I'm okay."
He whispers as he pulls her into his lap. His back leaning against the wall. Her head on his chest. She can hear his heartbeat. Feel him breathing.
There is no where else either of them would rather be. Content in each others arms knowing they're going to be safe and they're protecting each other
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Troubled souls
FanfictionTRIGGER Warnings: PTSD. Explicit language. Violence. Murder. Self harm. Panic attacks. Anxiety. Suicide attempt. And probably more. If any of these things trigger or bother you i suggest not reading. If any of you struggle or need someone to talk t...
