Head vs Heart

Don't make the same mistake again.

I looked at him shocked did he just say what I think he said . I couldn't able to move , I was frozen with bluntness. When I came back from Pluto back to earth I was still shocked as the realisation of what was happening came back to me.. he said .. I know what he said . But did he mean it ? How told him ? Is it true? Do I want thid?

"Are you sure? " I asked him unsurely ..

"Of course I am sure ! We have to do it tonight !" He said desperately.

"Maybe you are desperate. I mean where did you even hear about this? " I asked suspiciously. Something like this doesn't happen everyday .

" What do you mean I am desperate?!" He said more pissed off but avoiding my question.

" I mean why don't you go to some slut . I bet there are many that could make you feel satisfied, or whatever" I responded trying to sound uninterested in him, but the truth is that I wanted to try . At the end of the day I have nothing to lose and it won't be wrong because he was my mate once and we did that before what change does this make. 

"I don't want anyone but you. Bella you have to understand that I have you back now and I am not ever letting you go." He said trying to make eye contact with me which I was clearly avoiding because I knew that I will melt away , eyes- they are my weakness in such moments.

Right now, I am the weakest I can be. I am just a human ...

"We don't have the bond , William. Move on." I took a big breathe and told him . 

"Why do you want to get rid of me so easily Anna? " He said lifting my chin up , looking in my eyes, searching for something . What was he searching for. I look into him and all I could see is hope and faith and my own sad reflection.

"I... I.. I don't know . Why can't you leave? I know you can take care of Blake and everyone will move on. You survived without me for more then 3 years I think you can survive without me now." I said trying to sound confident but instead I just sounded so innocent even to my own ears.  I lowered my eyes to my feet, I wasn't able to maintain the intense eye contact .

"Bella. Look at me." He said demanding, holding my shoulders. I looked at him slowly. When my eyes met his again, he spoke "I survived , but I didn't live and I want to live with you. Everyday was a drag. I tried everything to forget you and no matter what I did I coudn't . You were always on my mind like a permanent virus. I let you go once and I am not doing the same mistake again. For fuck's sakes we have a kid together!" By the end he was shaking me lightly by my shoulders. 

"You can't make the same mistake twice and the second time you do , it's a choice. Go , William. You don't know what you are doing . You will be better without me... I will can't be a Luna , I am human ..." I sounded defeated at my own game. 

He stopped shaking me and lifted my chin again towards his eyes, he looked again as for looking for reassurance for something , but what  " No, Bella you are wrong " he said and the next thing I know his eyes were against mine, as soon as they touched I could feel the electric current passing through me from head to toe, my heart sped up. My emotions came up , the bond was resurrecting to the surface. All I could think was about his lips against mine and how right they felt . Without even me knowing my lips responded taking control of the kiss. He fought for dominance and won as soon as I gave in the ecstasy. I tangled my hands around his neck and into his hair bringing our bodies closer, the motion was so impossibly natural. As soon as our bodies touched , it was like a competition who would take each others clothes. 

We were so caught up that we didn't notice that we had an audience until we were both naked on the cold and wet forest floor and someone coughing. Our heads snapped at the direction to see Liana and Jacob looking at us. 

"I see we are interrupting something but I just want to let you know that we were waiting for you in the car for like at least an hour and we were getting deadly worried because as you can see here , William, decided to shut us off." Jacob said in a fatherly tone of voice like scowling a little child. 

I was still beneath Williams body which was pressed against mine that I could feel the heat radiating from  his nicely tanned skin to mine pale white. " Don't worry, go home." He said briefly looking at Jacob and Liana , definitely having a mental chat with him. Jacob nodded took Liana's hand and took off. 

Then he looked at me and not hesistatingly continuning what he started. Then started kissing me neck and from that moment I knew there was no going back as he sucked on the weak spot I started moaning. I could feel his teeth enlongate against his kiss, and the swiftly he sucked deeper and bit into me. 

I felt like I was on cloud nine, literally. I could feel life running back through me , I could feel my wolf coming back. I could feel and smell everything . My eyes were still closed at the sensation William was give to me. 

I could feel my wolf overpowering me as I slowly give in again. Maybe it was time to accept once for all , my instinct. I flip him over and taking control of the situation making me gasp in surprise. I kissed and massaged his nicely toned body until my wolf teeth came out and I licked a soft spot on his shoulder making him gasp for air and moan so sexily and loudly, encouraging me to proceed, without hesitating like I thought I might I gave into my wolf completely , she made me bite him . His blood made tingly things to my body. Never in my whole life I ever felt so powerful. 

I felt like I could do anything , I felt invicible.

One thing leads to another and I felt history repeating itself in another situation but this time I won't be able to leave. I bit him . He is bond to me like I am bond to him. We are going to together forever. One way or another we won't be able to survive without each other. 

It's all done. I hope this won't be something I will regret later on.

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