Head vs Heart

Time flies.

My body and mind was paralysed.

"Blake ,what did I tell you about interrupting adult conversations? It's rude , you are better then that. We will talk about this later, your jumper is your blue bag. Ask grandpa to help you." She scowled at him.

Was that kid mine? What did he interrupt? She was motherlish... She is a great mother. Did she called him BLAKE? What the heck? Lily told me... I am such a fool she never said Bella was dating or anything... Oh my days ... She is single then I don't have to deal with any bastard that claims she is his. There was some relief ... but back to Blake he is her kid , I watched him said

"I am sorry Mummy." The small boy said , looking down innocently.

"Talk to you later, Go and play ." She ordered, the little kid. He run happily to Daniel. She looked up and met my gaze.

"I can explain , as I was saying-"

"Is he mine?" I asked interrupting her , she was about answer when Amber came and hugged me. I saw glint of pain her eyes .

"Hey , sweetheart. What you doing ?" Amber whispered into my ear sexily. My whole body tensed and froze . I couldn't push Amber away... I watched Bella mask her emotions her fist tighten into balls that you can see white knuckles.

" I better get going. " She said strongly and walked away . My wolf was angry not only at myself but at Amber! That bitch !! I will kill her one day I was about to find out If I was a father ?!

I returned to Amber and said " Fuck off." She gasped and said "Baby don't be like that."

"Amber , it's over , wait it isn't because it never this never began. Leave me alone. I don't want to see you and your trashy face ever again! "  I yelled at her making few people turn to watch us.

" William , but I love you." She said innocently just to make me look like the bad guy now.

"Tell someone who cares. Now get out of my sight before I kill you." I demanded. 

"You will regret this. When she leaves or reject you again don't come running to me." She said and walked away showing too much of her body . I turned around and everyone returned to their conversations. Now I had to find Bella and explain and get some DAMN Answer's!!

Bella's POV

I was about to tell him about Blake when this cheap whore came and wrapped her arms around MY mate . My wolf wanted to rip her throat out but my mind saw it differently , what did I really expect obviously he is with someone . He wouldn't be waiting for me forever? I am just me , plain me.

Composing myself I said "I better get going." And left without looking back. What was I thinking? Seriously?! The tears escaped my eyes before I could notice , I changed into my wolf and run through the woods. My wolf finally agreed with my mind on disappointment. I arrived to a lake and transformed back to my human form , I was about jump in when I realised . That was the same lake he took me to.

I jumped in for a swim to calm me . I swam and dive around the lake few times when I reliased it was getting dark . I don't want my family worried as I stepped back I saw him staring at me. I quickly changed into my werewolf form and run . I wasn't in a mood to talk to him.

'Bella, please. She is nothing to me , she was a tool . She is trash.' He said through the mind-link I tried to block him out but because he is so near and we are in our werewolf forms I can't.

'Go away I am not in a mood to talk you .'

' Is Blake my son?'

' Can we do this another time.'

'Bella, for Goodness sakes answer me, IS HE MY SON?!'

' What do you think?'

' Can you answer me. Please...'

' Do you really think I would use people for sex like you?!' I still kept running. I could hear him behind me . But didn't bother to look back.

' Lily told me about Blake .. and I irrationally thought he was your lover and then I used Amber but she really didn't mind ,trust me'

' She didn't mind maybe someone else did?!'

' I am sorry Bella...'

'Save your apology for someone who cares '

' Bella stop! We need to talk about this like adults.' That made me run faster. The next thing I notice I hit the ground and he was on top of me in his human naked form. My wolf begged for his touch . But my mind told be that this wasn't the right time.

"Why did you hide it from me?" He spoke dominatedly. I just reliased I was in my human form too .

"I didn't .. I just didn't have the right opportunity to tell you. Time flies.."

" Really , a phone call would of have helped! I missed his first steps, words, birth, name picking ..."

"I wanted to say it to your face." I said confidently.

"A visit ?!!That's all it took a damn visit or you could of called me and I would of had visited you" He was angry at me now..

" I couldn't ." I stated.

"Mind telling me why?!"

"Because you wouldn't of let me go and I wouldn't be able to leave!" I screamed at him and slapped him. I was angry at him as much as he was at me , the little contact passed through me making me shiver , my wolf begged for more.  How could he let that bitch touch him?! URGHHH.. MAN ..

"That's true ... " He looked down in embarrassemnt and shame. Guilt run through me while I looked at his red cheek .

"I am sorry .." He said scanning my naked body then finally reaching to my face. I wasn't ashamed of my body anymore , he saw me naked before ...

"I am sorry too. I should of had ... It was just hard .. " I said and looked down.

"I missed you Bella , so much it's an understatement." He said lifting up my chin. I looked into his green eyes those who I see daily.

" I - I have to go back , it's late. " I was about to tell him I missed him too but I wasn't ready to give him the satisfaction yet. He bloody slept with that whore ! Who knows how many times. I turned around and shifted into my werewolf form and run back home.

I could feel him running behind me. 'She is so beautiful....' I read his thought and frown. I bet he wasn't  thinking about me but about that....'Bella ,come back to me. I need you as much as you need me.'

'I can't .We will talk about this later.'

'What did I ever do to you? Why do you hate me so much ? I love you Bella and always will. '

'I barely know you William. I don't hate you ... it's complicated.'

'Bella. I will do anything ,anything for you and Blake. You are my family, now. Whatever you like it or not. I need you . You leave me now, I won't survive it last time I had hope of you coming back ,but now Bella.. Please ....' His words stinged me, my wolf wanted to throw myself at him and do things I never thought of doing.

He laughed ruining the moment 'See I know you want me as much as I want you.'

' Can't I have a little privacy now-days! God... "What happen ?!"  stepped out of the forest transforming into my human form when I see everyone gone. The whole place a mess. Blood every where. Music still playing. I rushed into the living room to see ....