Twin Hearts

Chapter 15

KATH'S POV:

"QUEN?"

I imagined us excitedly looking at the two heart-shaped paper as soon as we get into the car. But it wasn't the case. He was seriously staring blankly on the windshield. I was waiting for him to speak up but he seemed pre-occupied.

"Quen.. what's wrong?" Medyo nakakapagtaka yung katahimikan nya.

He did not say anything, parang nagising lang sya bigla. Then he slowly pulled the two little stuff from his pocket and handed to me without looking at my face. I took them and surveyed carefully. They look so much alike, except that mukhang medyo luma yung isa; yon yata yung galing sa kin. Napa-ngiti naman ako.

"This is amazing.. grabe, i can't believe.."

Hindi pa rin sya sumagot.

"I still can't believe na nasa 'yo lang pala 'to all along." My smile was wide, I knew. Then i looked at my boyfriend again.

He was still serious though. Kaya nabura din yung ngiti ko. Nabo-bother na ko.

Hindi ko na talaga kaya. I had to confront the situation.

"Babe.." i think it was my first time to call him using his term of endearment for me. "What's the probem? Kanina ka pa tahimik."

He just moved to start the engine. "Wala. I'm okay."

I held his hand on the ignition. "Please.. sabihin mo naman sa kin kung may problema."

"Kath.."

I held on to his hand tightly. Natakot ako bigla sa pwede nyang sabihin.

Is he gonna break up with me? Or sasabihin nya na gawa-gawa nya lang yung 'twin heart'? Why do i have this feeling na may tinatago sya?

He removed his hand from the key and away from my hand too. Hindi pa rin sya makatingin sa kin.

Silence followed. Pinapakiramdaman ko sya.

"Wag mo naman akong pakabahin nang ganito.." i forced a smile and crossed my arms on my chest. Para akong nilalamig na maiiyak.

He sighed violently. Pain or anger or whatever that negative emotion reflected on his eyes when he finally looked back to me.

"You really wanna know?

I was surprised. Bakit parang galit 'to?

Hindi ako nakaimik.

"I lied. Hindi totoo yung sinabi ko sayo kanina, Kath. I lied to you. And i can't go on like this.."

I could not understand. Nanlabo bigla yung paningin ko. It felt like i was actually gonna cry already. "Lied? Ano? P-paano?"

Huminga nanaman sya nang malalim. "It's not me. Hindi ako ang destiny na hinahanap mo."

My head was figuratively spinning in confussion. "A-anong it's not you?" I raised the twin hearts. "Eto oh, di ba ikaw nga yon? Sabi mo kanina.."

Umiling sya.

"Sabi mo sayo 'to.."

Nagbaba na sya ng tingin. "No. It's not me. That's.. that's not mine."

Natulala ako habang nakatitig lang sa kanya. Naghihintay na bawiin nya yung statement. Pero tahimik lang sya.

"Joke ba 'to? Ha, Quen? Niloloko mo ba ko? So ano, umakyat ka kanina, gumawa ka lang ng bagong pusong papel, ganun? Para kunwari pareho-"