Snowbarry

Is Hope Still in the Air?

Barry's POV

I wake up and feel like someone is sleeping next to me. But I roll over and I see that I am still in the hospital bed in STAR Lab's Cortex. I don't know why I ever let myself become the Flash.It only made my life more stressful. Knowing what would happen to everyone about a week beforw it was going to happen made me so upset that I couldn't even take care if myself. When Savitar came back I ran into the future. I saw that Iris, Cisco, Joe, and Julian die. They would be captured by Savitar to be used to keep him from being erased from existence. I made a plan, but Savitar knew and it backfired and blew up in my face. I was going to save them and have Savitar be erased but he knew and he blew up the entire warehouse that he was using, killing Iris, Joe, Cisco, and Julian.I wasn't hurt physically but i was so cursed about losing so many people that I loved I just couldn't take it. But Caitlin found out about my plan to go baxk in time and kill myself as a baby. I don't know how she did it, she always had that weird talent. But Caitlin locked me in the med bay with nothing more than a mattress after she took away my speed. Her, Harry, Wally, and Jesse all took turns sitting on the room with me, trying to comfort me. I wouldn't listen to anyone but Caitlin because she felt the full weight of the situation, too. She came back and she wanted to help me save them so that the people of Central City would see her as a hero, but she accidentally hit the bomb with an icicle and set off the bomb. When she was talking with me, all w we talked about was how the people that we loved died, starting from our childhood. I never knew that so many of her friends died because of disease. I guess losses really do bring people together. I wouldn't talk to anyone else except her, because I found that we had a lot in common. The most prominent similarity being that we both lost the person we were meant to spend our lives with because of a fighting accident.

(time skip)

Barry's POV (still)

Jesse was sitting on the couch across from my bed. I wouldn't look at her. So I just kept looking at the ceiling, thinking, when I heard a soft knock. Jesse stood and opened the door. I could hear Jesse's voice; Strong and clear and confident; and another that I recognized immediately as the soft, soothing voice of Caitlin. I heard the door shut and felt a hand being placed on my leg.
"Hey."
I looked down at my leg and saw that Caitlin was sitting in a chair. I looked back at her face and smiled.
"Hi." I replied.
"So, I'm, I was thinking. Well, maybe we could start getting you back on your feet again? You know, so you don't have to live here anymore?" She asked taking her hand from my leg and intertwining her fingers with mine as she rubbed light circles into the back of my hand.
I just looked at her. Her eyes didn't have the usual gleam that they used to have, and her smile was forceful, almost. As if she were trying to make herself feel better.
"I know it sounds bad and impossible, probably, but it's been a year and a half since they all...you know... and I , well, I figured you were probably sick of it here. And you really need to live your life, since we never know how long we have." she said, a solemn and from expression cutting through the fake smile plastered into her beautiful face.
I sat up for the first time in a year and a half and Caitlin moved her hands to steady me when my entire body made an extremely unpleasant and audible crack. I took both of her hands in mine and lowered them. She blushed and shoved them into her lap as she looked down, intently studying her shoes.
"Where would I go? We sold Joe's house and my apartment. I dont have anywhere to live but here." I asked.
She looked up and said, " You could always stay at one of our places. I'd be willing to volunteer as you roommate."
She blushed and cracked a small smile, it was small and went away quick, but it was enough to make me think; Is there still hope for me?
I didn't return her smile, but I did reply, "I guess I could try."
That's when I realized that I had been alone for a while, and I didn't let anyone touch me except Caitlin, and she was always so much more than a friend to me. I couldn't help but wonder if she might feel the same way I feel about her. I decided to ask her if she loved me.
"Hey, uh, I was wondering-we'll, that is- I'm trying to say- I really want to know if- Argh!!" I couldnt muster enough courage to ask, so I waited a few moments.
"What is it Barry?" she asked in that honey covered voice that I loved.
"Just let me show you." I said as I decided to take a leap of faith.
I leaned in and met her lips. She froze for a moment then she kissed me back and as I wrapped my arms around her waist she placed her hands on my neck. I took that as a yes.

Omfg I can't believe I just killed off four characters in one chapter what is wrong with meee?? But anyway, please don't hate me and let me know if you like it so far!!