When I can drown in blood, I can lay on the ground !

"Please No!"

P.o.v Ivar
The next day she wasn't there anymore. I never saw her again. The morning I looked for her and didn't find her, I was fuming. She said she would stay. I knew why she left but I was still mad at her for leaving. I liked her and missed her. I wanted her more than anything. But I was king now and I could not think about her now. It would ruin everything. I have declared war to the whole world and a beautiful woman would not chance anything. Nothing would.
Nothing.

P.o.v Lilith
I tried not to think of him. I did my duties. I motivated and trained the army. I made agreements with important men. I trained. I did everything I should. It has been a month since I saw him the last time and I could feel my heart missed something. That little crippled bastard crawled into my heart.

My brother and I were sitting at a table beginning to eat our breakfast when I suddenly felt horrible. I could not look at the food without wanting to throw up.
"Are you okay, sis? You look terrible." My brother stated. "wow thanks. You are so nice." I said, Trying to fool him but it didn't work. As a server came with some meat I was done for and before my brother could say anything, I ran out the room.
And threw up.
"Are you okay your highness." A little server boy asked, with some water in his hand. I smiled. "Way better. Thank you." He looked at me for a little while before nodding and running off. I did feel better but I knew something was wrong.
After assuring my brother that I was fine and would go to a healer. I went to an old friend of the family. The only witch in the castle. She was very old and had helped my family since many generation, like her mother. I always liked her. She was like a raisin.

"Hello my dear." Her old voice whispered. "What gives me the honor?" She smiled and I already felt better. She somehow reminded me of my mom.
In some way.
"I don't feel good... I threw up before breakfast and..." she cut me of with her finger in the air. "When was the last time you bled?"
I was at first confused but then I thought about it and my heart dropped. "5 weeks or so."
A little smile formed on her face. "Lay here." She pointed at her bed and I did what I was told. She lifted my dress and with her cold fingers she touched and pressed on my belly.
And the sweet smile from before came again.
"You have a little wonder, from the gods."

"No... no no no. I can't. Not now. Why now? What did I do? Mhm? Can you not like... I don't know take it away?"
"Do you really want that?" She whispered.
"I don't know."

I was so confused. I was pregnant. I had never planned to get kids. At least not yet. I won't able to take care of a child. A child is something beautiful but it can also ruin many things. I was a queen. Of a huge kingdom. My brother.
I wasn't even married but that was the smallest of the problems...

Ivar.