When I can drown in blood, I can lay on the ground !

Ivar knows

P.o.v Ivar
I looked at the letter. It has been days since I got it and somehow I was too scared to open it. Maybe because there could be something in it, like that she didn't want the alliance or worse: she doesn't want me.

But now I was alone in my room, on the bed, looking at the letter. I had to open it.

Dear Ivar,
I hope you have gotten this letter.
I have some important news and I hope
That you will take it with, not happiness but at least respect or joy.
I don't regret anything we have done and this even sounds stupid and you don't have to like it or say it back but I have never felt like this in forever. When I was with you I was happy... even though.

So please don't hate me for this.
The gods thought it was a good idea to make me a mother.
And you a father.
                        Yours

What? She's pregnant. She's pregnant with my child. I never thought it was even possible for me to get kids but the gods have made me a gift. But she didn't sound happy.
Now I was walking around, trying to sort my thoughts. Fuck! Why did I first open it now? Was she able to remove the baby? Would she even do that?
"HVITSERK!!!" He didn't come and I got impatient. He was the only one I could talk to and he also knew Lilith. "HVITSERK FOR THE NAME OF.." he came in, leaving my word hang in the air. "What!?!" I just gave him the letter and waited till he had read it.
"For the holy gods of the one eyed Odin. She's pregnant... and and you are the father. Oh my. Ok, ok... ok. And now? What now?"
I walked to the fire, that burned to warm my house. "You think she would have get rid of it by now?" I looked back at Hvitserk who walked over to me. "No. I at least don't think so. I don't know her that well. But I know she sees it as an option...." he looked at me. I knew what he wanted to ask and I knew what I would answer. "But do you want it?"
"... Yes. I never thought I would become a father. I have enough food and power and stuff for a kid to have a good life. I just don't know what to do know. I have to get to her."

P.o.v Lilith
I was standing in front of the mirror, touching my belly. It was slowly starting to grow and with each day there went by I realized more and more that there was a human inside of me.
"Oh Ivar. What do I do?" I whispered to myself wanting him to be here. I know we don't know each other that well and there was probably not any love between us, but there was something, like some magnet was pulling my heart towards his. And all I could do was hope he felt the same...

The next morning I woke up to my brother yelling my name from the halls. I hadn't spoken to him since our last altercation.
"LILITH!!!!! There is some guy wanting to talk to you."
I sat up immediately. Maybe it was Ivar. I ran out.
It was not Ivar
It was Hvitserk.
"Hello Lilith long time no see."
I was speechless. Why was he here? And not Ivar? I wanted Ivar!
"What do you want?" I could feel my brothers stare me down, making me uncomfortable.
"I want to take you home!"