A Beautiful Disaster

nonsense

nonsense

you don't know,

you don't lie awake at night,

begging to fall asleep,

but the restless night already consumed you.

so you stay awake,

not caring that you didn't sleep too well the night before,

the warmth of your bed is the only thing keeping you warm,

other than that the cold night would make you cold,

I know this may not make sense,

or that I may too tired to write,

but maybe it's best for me to continue,

but at the same time, you don't want to,

you lie awake,

thinking maybe for you to actually to sleep,

is to end your own life,

slicing your wrists, or possibly overdosing,

maybe you're tired of everything,

and you just want to sleep,

maybe you just want to cry,

because you had enough,

and maybe you just want to give up,

because you are done with life,

here I am, writing this out,

just to tell you,

stop, take a deep breath, close your eyes and survive.

those restless nights that you dread will disappear when you actually sleep,

you can cry because crying helps,

but you should not end your life.

I'm sorry if I'm talking nonsense,

I myself, need some rest.

a.b.