Discoveries ✔ (Divergent Fourtris Fanfiction)

Chapter 50: Tuesday, 3 days after initiation

Tobias

"So are you going to tell me what's going on?"

"What do you mean?" Tris asks, but she can't fool me. Her eyes are cast down on the toast she's eating.

"I don't know, but ever since we came home yesterday you've been acting strange."

"Why is it strange that I want us to spend a night in my apartment instead of yours for a change?"

"Because I don't understand why you'd rather sleep in a cold room instead of a warm one, and why we brought breakfast over here when we could have had it in my kitchen."

"We stay at your place all the time, I just wanted to use my own apartment for a change. I can't see why that is something I need to justify myself for."

I set my cup down. This is getting frustrating.

"I never said you needed to justify yourself, I just asked you what's going on. We may not have been together for long, but I can certainly tell when something is bothering you, and if it has to do with me, I want to know. I can't believe we're getting into a fight about something as stupid as where we sleep."

"You see, for me it's not stupid. My apartment is only cold because I haven't spent much time here lately. My fridge is only empty because we never eat here."

"Since when does it matter to you where we stay? You didn't have a problem with that before, so that's why I want you to tell me what's going on!"

I take deep breath and exhale slowly. I need to calm down. It doesn't help if I get angry. Kindness, I think, stay kind.

I reach for Tris' hand. "I don't want to fight. I just want you to tell me what's on your mind, cause I get the feeling that I've done something wrong, but fail to see what it was."

At least I manage to speak calmly.

"I just want us to spend time in my apartment, too. Not because I don't like yours, or I don't like being there, but because I have this nice place that I call my own, and I want to use it. It's only fair if we take turns."

"So this is what it's about? Fairness?"

She shrugs and takes a bite from her toast.

"Listen, if it's really that important to you, we can do that. But if we're talking about fairness here, explain to me why this suddenly turned into such a big problem. We never even talked about this at all."

Although I try to say it nicely, there's an edge in my voice that I can't hide.

"I got into a fight with Christina yesterday, on our way to Candor. It was about how she only voted neutral on Uriah's request because Will told her so, and she accused me to be the same with you," she admits.

"But you voted for the complete opposite position than I did."

It doesn't make sense.

"That's true, but she said I'd only be spending time with you lately, and that I'd become more and more like you."

"You say that as if it was a bad thing to be like me."

"Tobias, that's not what I meant. I meant that she accused me of adopting your opinions and behavior instead of being myself, which isn't true."

"You say it isn't true, but you still let yourself be affected by her words," I sigh.

"I just noticed how little time we spend in my apartment, and I want to change it. That's all. It's not a big deal."