1.0 | Whisper Sweet Nothing | k.th✓

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C H A P T E R  F I F T Y

We both sat down on my bed, the quiet atmosphere between us was for sure, deafening. He; just like every other times when I'm nervous, grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together.

"Let not keep any secrets between us," he uttered. I dropped my shoulders and lowered my gaze. "What's wrong?"

Everything's wrong.

It took me a while to convince myself that telling the truth would not be the least nor was it the best option to choose. I argued with my subconscious; hesitated whether lying to him would be a good move or not and as it turned out, it wasn't.

"Talk to me, Chaewon."

"I'm not ready to tell you," I muttered. Abruptly, I got up and pointed at my window. "The kiss wasn't suppose to happen, I'm sorry. Please leave." I lifted my chin and stared at him. "Now."

"Wait, what?" A confused look drawn on his face as he rubbed his nape, his eyebrows knitted together. "Chaewon, you were clearly lying about not loving me back. The kiss proved it! How could you --"

"I love you!" I shouted those three little words that has been going on in my head for a while now. It was my first time saying the 'L' word to a guy, let alone confessing my feelings to one.

I got closer and cupped his left cheek which he then, placed his hand on top of mine. "This isn't how I wanted things to be, Taehyung." Slowly I shook my head and caressed his cheek using my thumb.

"Then, how do you want things to be huh?" His eyes became glassy and I couldn't help but let the wave of emotions get to me. "If you do love me, why are you doing this?"

"Everybody has their reasons. So do I."

"Chaewonㅡ "

"Let's meet up tomorrow," I cut him off. My expression was nonchalant but, my chest pain was acting up. I didn't want him to see me in a state where I'm weak so, I forced myself to hold the pain a little longer. "I'll tell you everything."

"Where?"

"At a place where I first shared the most important promise of all," I chuckled and my chest was clenched.

"Butㅡ "

"Now leave."

It took him awhile before he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead and gave me a warm embrace which lasted for a second.

"I'll wait for you,okay?" He cast me a gentle smile and hurried, he climbed out of the window.

As soon as he was out of sight, I took out a letter in my drawer; a letter which I planned on giving him before I leave tomorrow.

Unknowingly, I broke down on the floor, clenching my chest as I gasped for air. I began to sweat excessively and my heart was racing rapidly. I felt a sudden pain in my head. A ringing sound occurred and my vision;blurred.

My mom was downstairs boxing stuffs and I truly doubt she would hear my cries for help. Crawling my way closer to my nightstand, I grabbed my phone and speed dialed her number.

"Chaewon? What's wrong swe--"

"H-Help.." Just that, everything around turned pitch black.

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# S O T D

❝ Your heart is like a guillotine
It severely cut me out but
Like an ogre, I secretly go to you
And I look at your daily life every day.❞

— I LIKE IT.