1.0 | Whisper Sweet Nothing | k.th✓

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C H A P T E R  F O R T Y - S E V E N

As soon as Taehyung left, I felt something heavy weighing on my shoulders. The pain in my chest abruptly grew as I pressed it using my palms. I sat up and leaned against the headboard bed and took an immense breath.

I felt like pulling the tubes that were connected to my veins. The feeling in my chest was suffocating me. Was it another symptoms?

No.

This feeling felt different. It's as if my heart was clenched. Like; something inside me cracked and I couldn't feel anything anymore.

Anything but pain.

"Chaewon?" I heard the door slide open and Gab Soon quickly went to my side. "Yah Chaewon! Are you okay?" She rushed me to lay on my back and tuck the thick duvet on me. "Let me go and call the— "

I grabbed her wrist and shook my head. The chest pain slowly faded away. "I'm fine, Gab Soon. Just," I paused momentarily and shut my eyes. " —tired."

I heard a sigh escaped her lips. "Your mom told me everything." She stared at me with sad eyes."Are you sure you don't want to tell him?" Her voice came out in a hoarse whisper; her hands gently caressing my forehand using her thumbs as she took a seat beside me. "He'd be devastated once he finds out —"

"He won't," I cut her off.

"Yah, Lee Chaewon— "

"I made a vow when I agreed to do this assignment with him, Gab Soon." I looked up at her with teary eyes and a smile painted across my face. "I said--" I hiccup and an ugly cry was heard from me. "--I s-said that if things doesn't work out then...t-then..he doesn't have to see my face after the semester." I broke down and hit my chest again and again; bearing the pain I was feeling.

"He was right," I whispered to myself. Forcefully, I laughed through the tears, Squeezing my eyes shut. "I am a fool."

"No you're not," Gab Soon held my hands tight. "I know this news seems shocking but —"

"Gab Soon," I uttered. My arms dropped, feeling weaker than ever; hanging on her hands. I jerk my head away, not wanting to meet her gaze. "My chest hurts," I hit my chest just like earlier and gently rubbed it afterwards. "Why does it hurt so bad, Gab Soon?" I whimpered.

"Chae-"

"It hurts so so bad!" I cried out in agony. Involuntarily, my muscle tensed up and flexed to slap Gab Soon's hand away. My vision blurred and I started to hyperventilate under stress.

"Chaewon!"

"Gab Soon," I mumbled and with all my strength, I pulled her collar. "Don't tell Taehyung." As I said that, I let her go and a tear trickled down my cheek for the last time before everything turned pitch black.

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# S O T D

❝ If I say that I’m in pain,
I’m scared that I’ll really be in pain
If I say that I’m sad,
I’m scared that I will shed my tears
Why don’t I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh…
But people ask me why I’m crying.❞

— WITHOUT A HEART.