1.0 | Whisper Sweet Nothing | k.th✓

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C H A P T E R F I F T Y - T H R E E

Taehyung stood there, staring at a letter and ring that he found next to his mother's urn. No doubt Chaewon left it here on purpose. Slowly and painfully he unfolded the paper; bearing the massive pain that's been aching his chest all day.

'Kim Taehyung,

I see you finally found this letter. Before I start anything, I just want to say that I'm sorry. I know I promised to meet you but, I just couldn't bring myself to personally tell you this.

Recently, I found out that I have brain tumor. Shocking, isn't it? Yeah well, that's not the worst part yet. My sickness has gotten terrible and in order to get my full treatment, I'm moving to US today.

I lied. But only because I didn't want to see the worry look on your face. I know it's no excuse to do so but, you're no different yourself. I still wonder why you haven't told me that your dad's sending you to study abroad by the end of this month. If you're wondering how I knew then, that's because I visited your dad after I was discharged from the hospital. Why didn't you tell me?

I wish I could turn back time and fix this problem like I always do.

But I can't.

Because this is how everything turned out to be.

Remember when I said it's all because of our assignment? Well, I lied about that too. You're more than just some boy that my professor assigned me to. You're THE Kim Taehyung. The boy that caught my eye when I was 12 years old. You're the boy I found myself talking about; always, to Gab Soon every day since 10 years ago. The same boy who drives me crazy at times and makes my heart flutter.

You showed me all these different sides of you. Sometimes; you revealed too much. Too much that; I wasn't able to show you all of mine. Because everytime I see you, all I could think of was 'Am I enough?'

All I want to do is help you.

But instead, you got hurt.

Because of me.

and I'm sorry.

You and I; our story has been written and set with two different paths. I wanted to do something but I wasn't able to and that was the hardest part. I'm so sorry that I couldn't help until the end.

I've broken way too many promises, including the promise I made with your late mother. I don't expect you to forgive me but, instead, I want you to try to understand.

You mean alot to me, Kim Taehyung. But, I can't be with you anymore. So, I return this ring as a symbol of our goodbye. This isn't how I wanted us to part ways but, it's what we should do.

I just hope one day you could forgive me. I pray no heartache takes over your happiness because you deserve the sun to be shining through you. But most importantly, I pray you find the peace and love you need.

You denied this before but, I still believe you have a heart of gold. It'll take time for you to realise this but, one day you'll understand why I had to leave.

Since I won't be around anymore, i just want to remind you that It's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to start again. Do not ever think for a second that I left because you're not good enough. You and I both made a terrible mistake but, we wouldn't be humans if we didn't. And this mistake that we made -- it can make you the best person you can possibly ever be. and for me? We'll just have to wait and see. Just wait on it, wait on your future. Things will get better. I don't know how but, I trust God will provide a way.

I know I've said this way too many times but,

I really TRULY, love you.

You deserve so much more than a girl like me. I might not be good at making promises but, I know for sure that you do. So, please.. Promise me this one last time.

Promise me that you won't spend your life blaming yourself because of me.

I wrote you this letter so, we could have full closure. I've done my part. Now it's time to do yours.

Yours sincerely,
Lee Chaewon.'

He didn't realise his cheeks were stained with tears until somebody tapped his shoulder.

"We're sorry Taehyung," Jimin whispered, audible enough for him to hear. "I --"

He pulled him to a tight hug and broke down; no longer fighting more tears from pouring. His teeth were gritted, his jaw was clenched, his fist curled into fistful balls and all he could think of was Chaewon's well being.

"I-If only I knew.." he whimpered, unable to contain his emotion. Sadness and anger clouded my thoughts. He wasn't the type to cry infront of his friends but, sometimes these emotions have a mind of its own.

"She was in pain and..and--"

"shshh.." Jimin caressed his back gently. "Non of this is your fault. You didn't know." He patted his back slowly this time and shut his eyes as he felt Taehyung's head weighing on his shoulder with tears staining his shirt.

"I didn't know."

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# S O T D

❝Honestly I want to see you
But I will forget about you now
Because it hurts less
than hating you.❞

- SPRING DAY

(a/n: I'M SORRY!!!! <3 )