i want to talk to you,
I really do,
it's just,
you make me nervous,
not in a bad way,
and not in a romantic way.
im scared I'll say something wrong,
that I'll have something in my teeth,
that I have bad breath,
im slouching,
shaking,
full on,
too quiet,
weird,
awkward,
boring,
stupid,
embarrassing.
you make me nervous because you deserve more than a friend that worries every two seconds.
you make me nervous because I want to be good enough to be a good friend to you,
to anyone.
you deserve more.
which is why it's easier to just hear your voice.
I miss you.
but when you do come,
you make me nervous because you've been so good to me,
and I haven't to you.
I want to repay you,
but I don't know how.
please come back,
soon.
I miss you,
but you deserve more,
more than you get,
more than me.
