Guilty Pleasure

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The tour is a month and half away, the guys are busy prepping and I'm busy unpacking. I finally moved in with Jared two weeks ago. He said he wanted me here when he came home, truth be told I'd marry him in a heartbeat if he'd ask me to. I love it here it feels like home, I love waking up to his beautiful face every morning and falling asleep in his arms every night. I'm going to miss him when he goes on tour.

I'm making lunch for the boys while they talk shop out in the lounge. S:"Hey beautiful, lunch almost ready, I'm starving" Shannon goes to pick up some veggie sticks and I playfully slap his hand away, Me:"Don't touch! Are your hands clean" S:"Oops sorry mommy, I forgot I've been petting the dog". Me:"Wait we don't have....." Shannon starts laughing Me:"Ugh!!! Brat!!!!" I go to smack him as he pulls back. He puts his arms around me from behind S:"Aaah don't be mad" he leans in and whispers in my ear "I love it when your feisty" his breath on my neck sends shivers through my body, I whisper back "And I love it when you're a good little boy and you keep your hands off your brother's merchandise" S:"Come on baby, you know you want my hands on you" is it hot in here or is it just me "Shannon please, stop!" The dryer buzzer goes off, saved by the bell. Me:"Can you keep an eye on the stove while I check the dryer" S:"Sure" As soon as I walk out the kitchen he reaches for the tray Me:"Hands off Shannon!!!" What the hell does she have a hidden camera in here? He shakes his head and laughs it off. My cell goes off and he takes a look at the screen it's Julie, S:"Hmm, who's this?" He picks up the phone and looks at the picture on the screen, Long brown hair, hazel eyes, beautiful smile, and sun kissed skin like Nina's S:"She's sweet!" There's something about her that intrigues him. The screen goes dark but her face stays etched in his memory.

I come back in the kitchen and find Shannon looking like the cat that swallowed the canary. I arch my eyebrow "Are you ok" he just looks at me S:"So who's Julie?" Huh???? S:"She called" Me:"Where's my phone?" He was still holding it S:"Ooops sorry" Me:"What are you doing with my phone, nosy" S:"I thought it might be Jared" Me:"Really? Jared? Because he's too lazy to come in here???? Nice try Shan, try again" S:"Ok I got curious, so who is she?" Me:"What replacing me already?" I turn to check the stove and he comes behind me and kisses my neck S:"No, no one could ever replace you. You jealous???" I moan an lean into him. Dammit! He smiles in satisfaction. Me:"Mmmm....... No! Shannon it's just a question" I break free of him and begin setting up my trays. S:"She just looks like someone I'd like to get to know" Me:"you'd like her, she's a real sweet heart" S:"You're self restraint is impressive you know that" Me:"Why you say that?" Shannon goes to pour himself some wine S:"Fuck!!!" Me:"What happened?" S:"My good shirt too!" Me:"Why don't you take it off so I can pretreat it before the stain sets in." He took off his shirt, dear God his chest!!!! It was chiseled and sexy. I go to grab his shirt S:"Wait....." He pulls me into his arms ".....You remember that night at The Gas Lamp" ah hell, I can't breathe Me:"Shannon......Please don't" he gently caresses my face, his fingers travel slowly down my neck and chest. He has a mischievous smile on his face. He's getting to me, he knows it and he's enjoying it. S:"I can feel you Nina, you want me, your body craves me." God he was right I felt so intoxicated right now. His body, his bare chest pressed to mine. My lips dance on his bare chest he tilts his head back and moans, Me:"I can't" S:"Give in to me, Nina. Stop denying your body what it craves" he devours my lips and I loose it. He trails kisses down my neck S:"Do you know how long I've wanted you?" Me"Shannon" S:"Remember this?" he undoes his pants and guides my hand downward between his pants and his underwear, he was so ready for me I moan S:"Tell me you want me Nina" I want him bad but I can't tell him that, this is insane we could get caught. Me:"I can't.....please" I put my hands and my forehead on his chest and try to catch my breath, he smells like sin. He puts his fingers under my chin and a lifts my head and kisses my lips, I reach for his neck enjoying his lips. I can't do this, Me:"I'm sorry" I hug him and he puts his arms around me S:"I'll make you mine Nina, someday I'll make you mine" his heart is pounding inside his chest, he smells like Jared and I feel guilty how can I do this to the man I love. We hear voices and we separate, he zips up his pants I take the shirt to the laundry room.

Tomo and Jared walk into the kitchen and find Shannon shirtless. T:"The Fuck???" Jared raises an eyebrow and gives Shannon a death look J:"Where is she?" S"You know little brother you're too paranoid for your own good" J:"Spare me the lecture Shannon, where is?" I came back with a clean shirt, Jared's back was to me so I couldn't see the look he was giving Shannon. Me:"Hey Baby, you hungry" I go to kiss him but he just gives me a cold look. Me:"Really? He spilled wine on his shirt I went to get him a clean one to change into" I show him Shannon's stained shirt and his features soften but he's still upset. I throw the clean shirt at Shannon Me:"Here this should fit" T:"I'm sorry to say this sweetie but it does look bad" he was right, it did and Jared had every right to be jealous it just hurt that he was still insecure about Shannon, even if he had every reason to be. Me:"I know it does but I would like to think Jared would trust me to do the right thing" I look a Jared he's still looking at Shannon like he wants to slit his throat. I threw the Shannon's shirt on the counter in front of Jared, Me:"Why don't you clean it yourself!" And I walk away J:"Nina!!!! NINA!!!" He catches up to me half way up the stairs "Baby I'm sorry, please don't be mad" Me:"I'm not mad I'm just disappointed, I know it looked bad....ok it looked really bad but why can't you trust me" J:"I do trust you baby it's him I don't trust." Me:"What exactly did you think was going to happen in the middle of our kitchen?" J:"I don't know Love, I saw him standing there without his shirt and I just ......... Well what was I suppose to think?" Me:" That I could exercise some self restraint! Really Jared, thanks for the vote of confidence!" I turn and finish climbing the stairs

Back in the kitchen Shannon puts on the clean shirt. Tomo isn't too convinced and decides to question Shannon. T:"What the fuck happened man?" S:"Nothing happened" Tomo gives Shannon a look as if to say yeah right! S:"What???? Nothing happened!" T:"Come on Shannon you and I both know you're still hung up on her." S:"Do you really think I'd do that to Jared?" T:"Do you really want me to answer that?" S:"Ok I'll admit she's under my skin but I'm not gonna loose Jared. Lea almost tore us apart, I'm not gonna let that happen again" T:"I'm not questioning your love or your loyalty to Jared, I'm just wondering how long you'll be able to keep your hands off his girlfriend" Tomo was right, damn it, but he hated what he was implying S:"She's not Lea" T:"No she isn't but you're still you" Shannon looked quietly into the distance, Tomo came over and gave him a hug T:"It'll be ok, you'll live" S:"Ha ha real funny" T:"Come on let's take this food outside before it gets cold, I'm starving and they're gonna be a while."