from now on | fillie

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millie's pov:

he can't leave. he can't go. oh my god i miss him so much already. don't leave me. please don't leave.

i woke up in a cold sweat, tears streaming down my face. i couldn't breathe. i needed air. fresh air. i opened my window and stuck my head out.

why isn't this helping??? i need air. i need air. I NEED AIR! why is all of my air leaving my body.

i checked my pulse, and i was still alive. thank god. WHAT IS HAPPENING?? I NEED FINN. NOW. now.

i picked up my phone from my night stand and dialed finns number as quickly as my fingers could go. the line rang a few times.

pick up. pick up. pick up. please pick up.

after what seemed like forever, i heard a groggy, 'hello' on the other side of the line. "f-finn?" i croaked. "i need you to come. now." i said, very sternly. "what's going on millie? are you ok?"

"finn i can't breathe. i need you here. p-please. please finn i n-need you right now." i choked in between sobs. "i'm coming." and then the line went dead.
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now, some of you are wondering: what's happening to the girl? is she alright? is she hallucinating? why can't she breathe?

and the reason behind millie's panicked state, is she was having a panic attack. about her father.

and right now, the only thing that can help her is her finn. he was the only one who could help her.

right at this moment, millie was in her room, her knees tucked up to her chest, telling herself to calm down. telling herself everything will be ok.

on the other hand, finn was sneaking out of his house in only his joggers and a hoodie. millie needs me. she needs me now, cmon finn!! hurry the hell up! she needs you, you have to help her.

the groggy teen ran out of his house, and to the scared girls home. he went to the outside of her house, where her window was, and started throwing rocks at it.

in a split second, millie was helping finn into her room, making sure to keep quite. her mother didn't need to know she was having a panic attack at 3 am.

once finn was in millie's room, he was being pulled into a tight hug. "sh, sh, it'll be alright mills." millie sobbed into the boys chest, she sobbed and sobbed, until finally she stopped.

she dragged herself and her boy into her bed. "mills, are you sure?" finn asked the shaken up girl. she nodded, giving him a weak smile.

so, finn lay in the girls bed, making sure the was alright. she lay her head on finns chest, sniffling, talking deep, slow breaths.

an hour had passed of millie waking up, crying, finn holding her, whispering sweet little nothings into her ear, and millie calming herself.

it was now 5 am, and the poor girl had barely gotten any sleep. she tried and tried to forget the horrible memory from when she was just a first grader.

but she couldn't get the memory out of her head. "god, finn! i'm so tired! i just want to sleep!! my s-stupid head won't let me!" millie choked, she was crying, once again.

finn, being the absolute sweetheart he is, felt horrible for the sweet girl. she didn't deserve any of this. he wanted to help as much as he could.

he tried and tried to calm the girl, but something in her mind just wouldn't turn off. someone was lingering in her mind.

every now and then, millie would just look at the boy, admiring his features. looking at his beautiful face calmed her. it almost made her forget about the awfully vivid memory.

she liked to count his freckles. she liked tracing her fingers over them, just looking at them.

"thank you, finn." millie whispered, eyes closed. finn looked down at the almost sleeping girl. he smiled to himself and pressed a kiss on her forehead.

"don't thank me millie. anytime you need me, i'll be here." finn said into the girls hair. millie lightly chuckled, feeling lucky to have someone like finn in her life. "now, try to get some rest, love bug."

and with that, the girl was out.

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two updates in one day? woah! who am i?? anyways, i wanted to address that panic attacks are very serious, and if you're ever having one, you need to tell someone so you can get help! panic attacks are in no way romancit at all, this was more of showing how much finn cares about millie. and, this is only the beginning of millies awful past with her father. don't worry, you'll find out soon. and i guess this was a filler, tell me if you want me to write more chapters like this

xoxo, leah