Love letters (violet Evergarden male characters x reader)

Claudia part 5

(f/n)'s pov - why did love have to hurt so much? why did compliments have to make me feel worse. why are the hurtful words much more acceptable, why did he have to come in my life. my life had always revolved around me staring at this wall at the end of the day. the constant beige the constant memories that flashed through my head it never seemed to fade. I turned on my back to look at the ceiling I been around, done it all was there anything left for me to do? or have I wasted my life on something I should have stopped so long ago?

two years ago - "what are you going to do after this Claudia?" I asked as I rolled over laying my head on his lap "I'm going to start a postal company." he said I chuckled "that is gonna cost a lot of money but if you want I can save a spot for you with my clients." I joked Claudia looked down at me as he ran his knuckle over my face "I have the money" he said I looked at him "well then I guess everything is set for you after the war." I said "if I make it" "I know you will make it" "how?" "people like you always make it" Claudia frowned leaning down he pecked my lips "listen to me I promise you I will take you with me after all this you don't have to do this anymore." he said I don't know why It was so hard for me to believe this but after so many conversations with him on wanting to quite this way of life and work for him I finally was able to believe he would actually take me with him. "you better or I will never forgive you" I said

one year ago - Claudia was finally leaving I was so excited I had everything packed looking over my suitcase I had a few but it was all I had after all. carrying them out I smiled "hey (f/n) got time for a 350" one soldier said "sorry hun I don't do that anymore I am finally leaving" "oh where you heading?" "Claudia is taking me with him I am getting out of this frozen mud filled mess and going to the city." I said the soldier started to laugh "whats so funny" I asked with a stubborn pose "get your ass back in the tent and suck my cock who the hell do you think your playing Claudia left last night" he said. I paused as I looked at him "your lying" "no you idiot I'm not ask anyone that dude played you got your hopes up really high what did I tell you a whore cant ever be a wife." how could I have been so stupide to trust Claudia of course its my fault I knew I was stupid. a man like that, who had money, was in the army, and was so nice could never love someone like me. I looked at the soldier smiling "of course I have time for you I was just joking to see if you'd miss me if I left." the soldier clicked his tongue "whatever lets go" he said.