Love letters (violet Evergarden male characters x reader)

Gilbert chapter 8

(f/n) slowly opened her eyes she felt over the opposite side of the bed Gilbert was gone. "of course today I will be with Violet" she mumbled to herself.

after spending a hour bathing all the left over fluids and smells from last night (f/n) made her way to the dinning room.
"Miss bougainvillea you have a guest" the maid said (f/n) turned to look at the maid she had seen violet standing next to her.
"Violet set your type writer up in the sun room" (f/n) said
"where is the sun room" violet asked
"maria show her the sun room I'll get breakfast" she said
"I already ate" violet said
"I wasn't asking you" (f/n) said as she walked off towards the kitchen

violet and maria looked at each other "don't worry she is actually kind she just has been on edge lately since master gilbert leave" she said.
violet looked down "he never told me about her" she said
"(f/n) is someone who comes from a non-rich family it was hard for them to be together she didn't understand some decisions he had to make and he didn't understand the freedom she wanted him to have." maria gave violet a light smile "come on I'll take you to the sun room" she said before leading the young blond away. (f/n) sighed as she stood in the kitchen she thought back to when gilbert arrived it was during his recovery in the hospital.

(over a year ago 3rd person's pov)
I Jumped out of the slowed down car ignoring Claudia I hurried to into the hospital. "(f/n) wait!" he yelled but I couldn't wait "I am looking for major gilbert bougainvillea" everything was like a slow motion movie. all I could feel was the thumps of my heart beating through my chest fear overwhelmed me was he dead, did he suffer? or is he alive and suffering in pain.
"ARGH!!!"
my eyes widen that was his scream I ran down the hall following the screams "Gil, Gilbert!" I yelled pulling curtains back in finally found his three nurses held gilbert down as they unwrapped his bloody bandages. I covered my mouth I felt sick when I seen it his arm was gone. tears flooded my eyes he was in pain and I couldn't do anything for him "gilbert."

Gilbert spent two months in the hospital his right eyes was badly injured and he nearly lost all his vision in it. after realizing he lost his arm he went into shock and almost died there was a lot of problems I have adopted from him. his leg was injured he had no arm and his vision I was constantly scolded for helping him moving things closer or just making decisions for him.  

"Hey (f/n)" gilbert squeezed my hand I looked up at him from being lost in thought.
"You don't have to stay go home and rest" he said
"N-no i am okay I want to stay" i said. gilbert cupped my cheek giving a light smile I leaned in kissing him. "I swear (f/n) I wont leave your side ever I'll make sure we have a daughter a big family I never want to see you sad." he said
my eyes watered I hugged him tightly this man i loved him i didn't want to see him sad or hurt either I would do anything to make him happy.

I snapped out of thinking of the past realizing the kettle was screaming i made the tea I don't know why i am feeling so scared. then again this was the first time i would express my feelings about my daughters death I don't know why i dislike violet but maybe doing this i can figure it out,