Dietfried pt something I forget lol

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dietfried sat at his home bar wasted as he couldn't even make his own cocktails right he just downed the bottle of jack daniels. he laid his head on the amber colored bar staring at the empty glasses and the mess he caused the room spinning fast he so wanted to vomit but his body wouldn't move. why, why would she marry someone else didn't he matter he questioned?
his arms were heavy as if weights were tied to his wrist he couldn't sit straight all he could do was slouch. his body was really failing as his mind and heart fought each other.
"Move go to her"
"what if its a waste why do I have to run after her?"
"she ran after you"
"it was just sex I didn't really love her?"
"but you did"
back and forth he contemplated what to do "damn it!" he shouted as he threw the glass bottle at the wall. breathing heavily the door opened "I don't need any help" he growled thinking it was one of the sevants he turned to see (F/N). "What are you doing here" he muttered
she walked over moving the hair out of his face "I cant sleep" she said.
"that's not my problem that's your fiancé's now" dietfried said as he pulled away he sat on the chair "why the hell are you getting married huh to please your dad what more can you give you joined the fucking navy for him you went to prison for him!" he shouted
"and I would do it again if it meant I could see you dietfried If I didn't do it I wouldn't have met you. I fell for you dietfried you were the reason I made it through my sentence you might not care about me maybe it was just sex but I loved you." she said
"You don't love me your getting married to someone else if you loved me you would be marrying me!" he shouted "you didn't wait for me you went off and found someone else if you loved me why didn't you come find me!"
(F/n) paused "I wrote you" she said "every week I sent out letters and you never wrote back when I got out I came looking for you but-" she paused "You talk about me moving on but what about you dietfried you always had women all over you."
"that was just sex it meant nothing I have needs and every time I did fuck someone I thought of you." he said
"oh well then lets put that all behind us then huh cause that's so fucking reassuring you thought of me when you fucking someone else!" she shouted
"Like you didn't fuck someone else when you got out." dietfried shouted
"NO I DIDNT!" she shouted "I can't do it its not like back then with you I hate being touched." she said
"well that's gonna be a real hinder for your new man don't you think" dietfried said
"he understands and is willing to wait." she said
"Until he can't no more and goes looking for a nice piece of ass just give up your not ready for marriage." dietfried said
"You just said you would marry me!" she shouted "ARGH! that's why it was so hard dealing with you cause your like two people your a asshole and then your not but your condenscending you think you know everything and you don't! you don't have the realization of what I go through everyday I cant work i cant take over my father's land i cant do anything cause of what happened in the navy they screwed me over!"
"I KNOW I KNOW THEY FUCKED US BOTH OKAY BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU GIVE UP!" he shouted as he grabbed her shoulders "I watched you get the shit beat out of you everyday. i watched you climb that wall 16 ft high with bloody rope burned hands in pouring rain to prove a point that you could do it. and your marrying a man so you can keep your father's land and make him proud your the very thing you never wanted." he said (f/n) stared at dietfried with realization stepping back "I-I I'm sorry i have to go." she said as she hurried out the room dietfried stared at the door as it slowly closed.
"Go Go!" his ,mind screamed
"I can't...."

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