Damon's Secretary (COMPLETED)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Yiandra

Ilang oras na akong nakahiga pero hindi pa rin matigil ang pag iyak ko. I know this will affect to my baby but I can't help it. I just can't really help it.

'Baby I'm sorry. Babawi na lang sayo si Mommy.'

"Yiandra girl stop it. You've been crying for almost two hours. It will affect you and your baby." Sam reminded me for the nth time. Sorry Sam, pati ikaw nadamay sa kagagahan ko.

I didn't say a word to her. I just closed my eyes and started to release some thoughts that's bothering me.  I need to rest, I know to myself that I badly need it. I was about to lose all my senses drowning to sleep when my phone rang. I opened my eyes, tinignan ko kung sino ang nasa caller ID.

My heart beats abnormally when I saw his name on the screen. Shit! What is this for Ignacio? Ano pang kailangan mo? Wala ba ngayon sa tabi mo ang girlfriend mo, that's why you need me to fill up the space in your fucking bed? Agad akong nakaramdam ng habag sa sarili.

With all the realizations that slaps my face in an instance. With all the efforts I gave just to satisfy him. I can't think straight. I am really occupied, only to realize that it is his second call this time. I missed a call from him.

"Hello." I said. Trying to act normally but deep inside it's not.

"Where are you?" he asked with a serious tone.

"In my friend's house." ayokong patagalin pa ang pag uusap namin kaya nagkunwari akong naghihikab.

"The exact place?" nanlaki ang mata ko sa narinig. Shit! Ignacio don't do this to me please...

"Di mo na kailangang pumunta rito. Isa pa gabi na mambubulabog ka lang ng mga taong tulog dito." naiinis kong usal sa kanya. I don't want him here, I don't want to see his fucking cheater face right now!

Cheat? Seriously Yiandra? Pag aari ka niya pero ikaw hindi mo siya pag aari.

"I said the exact place Yiandra! You know to yourself that I can find you even if you won't tell me where are you right now!" napapikit ako. Fuck you Ignacio! The typical you! So bossy fuck!

Kahit ayaw kong sabihin sa kanya ay napilitan pa rin ako. I know he'll find his ways just to get what he wants.

"Girl akala ko ayaw mo siyang makita?" nag aalalang tanong ni Sam sa akin.

"Kahit ano pang gawin ko Sam mahahanap niya pa rin ako. You know Damon Savier, he'll find his own ways. At isa pa kailangan naming mag usap, I'll try my best to face him na parang wala lang."  hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at marahang pinisil.

"I trust your decision girl. Just call me if you need me." pagkatapos niyang magsalita saktong tumunog ang doorbell nina Sam.

He's there already. Agad lumukob ang kaba sa aking dibdib. I don't how to face him. Di ko alam kung anong magiging reaksiyon ko pagkaharap ko na siya.

Binuksan ni Sam ang pinto at giniya papasok si Savier. He immediately turned to me. His dark piercing eyes bored into me as if I did something wrong. Wag mo akong tignan ng ganyan Ignacio! Ikaw ang may kasalanan sa'kin!

"Can I take your friend home with me?" paalam niya kay Sam ng hindi man lang tumitingin dito, nasa akin pa rin ang atensyon niya. What the hell?!

"Oh-- sure! Just take care of her and the--"

"Sam! M-mauna na kami!" bumaling ako sa kanya at tinignan siya ng masama. Hell Sam! You'll render me an accident in no time at all. Savier doesn't know about it yet bitch!

Una akong lumabas at hinayaan si Savier na magpaalam sa kaibigan ko. Damn bitch! Can't she just shut up her mouth?! Ni hindi ko pa nga alam kung tanggap pa 'to ng magiging ama niya o ano tapos papangunahan niya ako?!

Ramdam ko ang paghigit ni Savier sa akin papuntang elevator. When he finished to pushed the button no one dared to speak up. I'm not in the mood to speak to this fucking cheater. Not here.

Ako na mismo ang nagbukas ng pinto ng kotse niya at hinanda ang sarili ko. Nag eexpect ako ng malupitang bangayan kaya't huminga ako ng malalim. He started the engine and drive. Neutral at first but when we passed through the stoplight he drive as if there's no tomorrow.

"Fuck you Ignacio! Ayoko pang mamatay!" hindi niya ako pinansin at tuloy pa rin sa pag drive ng mabilis.

"Stop the car Savier!" lumingon siya sa'kin ngunit binalik niya muli ang pansin sa kalsada. "I SAID STOP THE FUCKING CAR SAVIER!" naluluha kong sabi.

Nanginginig ako sa takot, sa nerbyus at sa pagod na nararamdaman ko. Hininto niya ang sasakyan sa tabi. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kanya ng tumingin siya sa gawi ko.

"We need to talk." he said, still looking at me intently.

"Sa tingin mo, makakapag usap pa tayo kung ganun ka kabilis magmaneho? Damn Savier! You're scaring me!" tumingin ako sa kanya, but wrong move. Di ko alam ang lapit na pala ng mukha niya sa'kin.

"I just want to be in our condo immediately. We'll talk there."

Our? Fuck you! Baka you mean 'our' niyo, kayo ng girlfriend mo or shall I say fiancé!
I just rolled my eyes and didn't answer. Naramdaman niya sigurong wala ako sa mood makipag usap kaya nagsimula na ulit siyang magmaneho. Until I realized na andito na kami sa harap ng condo niya.

Pagkapasok na pagkapasok namin sa condo niya ay hinawakan niya agad ang braso ko at giniya sa sala.

"I really need to talk to you." seryosong usal niya. Di ko alam kung bakit nakaramdam ako ng lamig. The sudden cold that wrapped my whole system made me shiver.

Binalewala ko yun. Umupo ako sa sofa at ganun din ang ginawa niya. He look at me again and I look at him too. Why is he intimidating? Why do I have this feeling? The butterflies in my stomach? Now I sound crazy.

"Then talk." I said without taking my eyes off him.

"We need to stop this nonsense, Yiandra. I'm getting married." he looked at me trying to read my emotion.

I won't let you see it damn Ignacio! Kahit ramdam ko na parang kinayumos ang puso ko sa sinabi niya. Di ko alam kung saan ako humugot ng lakas upang tumango sa kanya. Ngumiti ako, alam kong peke but I need to so this. Act normally Yiandra! Act as if wala lang sayo ang mga sinabi niya.

"Yun lang? Okay. Let's stop this nonsense then." diniin ko ang bawat salita na binigkas ko. "Thanks for the good times, Savier. I won't bother you anymore. See you when I see you." hindi ko na nagawang ngumiti at tumalikod. Bago ako makalabas ng pintuan ay bumaling ulit ako sa gawi niya "And nga pala Savier, best wishes sa inyong dalawa." after saying thise words ay dali dali na akong lumabas. I didn't bother to hear what he was going to say.

Right, this fucking thing we are doing is nonsense from the very start. Alam kong wala akong makukuha dito. But I can't deny the fact that I hoped for his feelings. Umasa akong mabahagian niya ako ng pagtingin.

I even imagined myself doing sweet talks to him before going to sleep and waking up in the morning lying on his side. Now it slowly shattered, it vanished like a bubble. I need to let him go. I won't beg for his love. I haven't confessed my feelings for him yet. Safe pa ako sa part na yan pero hindi ang puso ko. I can't blame him with all of these ginusto ko naman ang lahat. And if there's a thing that made me happy is that my baby came in to the picture.

'Don't worry baby. Mommy will take good care of you. I won't let anyone hurt you. Tama na ang naramdaman ni mommy sa mula ama mo. I'll take all the pain baby. For you. Your father won't be on your side but I promise I'll shower you with love."  I murmured, touching my stomach while tears rolling down my eyes.