Cigarettes [Bennoda] ✔

Chapter 38

Chester's POV
Finally it was graduation day. My mom was a nervous, crying wreck for most of the day. I was excited, but nervous as well. I hadn't heard from my dad or Mike all day long and it was only a few hours until the ceremony started.

"Oh Chester, you look so handsome." She said as she peaked her head into my room while I was buttoning up a black, long sleeved shirt. I went and bought an outfit that actually fit me so I wouldn't show up wearing baggy clothes, even though it would mostly be hidden under my graduation gown. My black pants were almost skinny jeans and I hate to admit that my first thought when I put them on was, "I wonder if Mike will think my ass looks good."

"Aw come on mom. Don't cry over everything." I said with a little chuckle as I walked over to her. I gave her a hug and she pulled away and wiped her tears. "I'm sorry. This is just such a big day. My boy is growing up." She said. "I know mom. Have you heard from dad?" I asked. "No I haven't. I called him a couple hours ago and he didn't pick up." "Fantastic." I said sarcastically as I looked down and fiddled with the button on the cuff of my shirt.

The way my dad had been acting the passed few months was really pissing me off. First he moves, clear across the state and then he can't even call to check up on us. I kept wondering what the hell we did to make him act like that towards us.

"Hey. We're going to have a good day with or without him. Okay?" My mom said as he lifted my head up to look at her. I nodded. "Yeah." "Have you heard from Mike?" She asked. I sighed and shook my head. "I talked to him before I went to bed last night. He said he'd be here at around lunch time, but..." I said as I looked at my clock on the wall. "It's four. So it looks like the two main guys in my life aren't going to be there for one of the biggest days of my life. Great."

I moved away from her and looked at myself in my mirror to the side and sighed. I flattened out my shirt and started tucking it into my pants while I tried not to cry. "Oh honey... it's going to be okay. I'm not sure about your dad, but I know Mike will be there. He's probably just running late." She said. I just shrugged. "You think he's just running 4 hours late?" I asked. "You never know." I sighed again. "Literally Ryan has his entire family coming, Till and some of Till's family. They came from fucking Germany to see him graduate. Why is it so hard for my dad and Mike to drive like five hours to see me?" I said.

"It looks like the only people that will be there are you, Brian, Katherine and Annie. Which is fine I guess. I mean I can live without my dad or Mike. That's a lie I actually need Mike." I rambled on. "Wow is it hot in here? It's getting really hard to breathe. I need a smoke right now." I said as I started to panic. I reached for my pack of cigarettes, and my mom grabbed me by my shoulders. "Calm down Chester. I'm sure they'll show, but if they don't, then fuck them. They obviously think that other things are more important, and if that's the case, you don't need them." She said. I closed my eyes and nodded. I took a deep breath and turned from her again.

"When do we have to leave?" I asked. "Graduation doesn't start until six, but you're supposed to be there a little early of course." She said. I nodded. "I wish that they were having it in the gym instead of on the football field. I can already tell that I'm going to have a panic attack, and panic attacks are always worse in the heat. There's nothing better than suffering while it's a million degrees." I said sarcastically. I was on a roll with my sarcastic comments that day.

"Chester... it's going to be okay. Take deep breaths." She said. I just nodded. "We're going to head out in about an hour and a half, so be ready by then." She said as she patted my back. I nodded again and she left.

I tried calling Mike and he didn't answer so I just sent him a text.

Me: Hope everything is okay... I hope you can make it to my thing today. I love you <3

I even tried calling my dad and it just rang and rang. The whole rest of the hour and a half, I paced and took deep breaths like my mom told me. I planned on not having a nervous breakdown on what was supposed to be one of the greatest days of my teenage years.

"Chester... it's time to go." My mom said at around 5:30. I sighed and nodded. I got my cap and gown and got in my mom's car. I already had tears welling in my eyes. "Chazzy it's gonna be okay." Annie said as she patted my shoulders from behind.

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Sorry for the short chapter again. The next one will be longer I promise XD.