Kookmin's presents: This one is For You

26~ Falling in to pieces

JUNGKOOK'S POV

I miss you too my mochi.

I want to see you,hug you,kiss you and keep you forever.. But for now, it's impossible.

I can't do anything that'll go against your Papa. Ayoko ng magkamali ulit na maging dahilan pa para mas ilayo ka saken...take you away from my reach.. No,I won't and I can't take that.

For now I have to endure the pain without you...being away from you slowly killing me. If I could just tell you how much I love you...if only I could touch you like right now...But the world seems against us.

Hintayin mo lang ako mahal ko..Darating ako para sayo..hintay lang mahal,babalikan kita at hindi papakawalan pa ulit.

Sana alam mo ding miss na miss na kita.. Kinakausap kita subalit hindi ka nagsasalita..Oh God knows how much I want to kiss you every seconds...want to kiss you goodnight and greet you with a kiss in the morning..

Mababaliw na'ko sa pagka-miss ko sayo. Hinahanap-hanap kita sa umaga hanggang gabi..nahihirapan akong matulog dahil hindi kita katabi. Mahal,wag ka sanang mainip sa paghihintay saken...

Sana kasi kaya kong baguhin ang takbo ng mga oras...pabalik sayo. Gusto kong maging malakas at magpakatatag...but I can't because you're my strength. They took you away from me. They took my Moon away from my nights...now I'm sleepless as my night sky were too dark. Where are you my Moon?

How many more tears to come? How many more night I wish you were here in my arms? Baby come back to me. I need you,I miss you and I really,really love you.

"Hey buddy,guess what? Sinagot na'ko ni Jin!".

Buti pa si Namjoon,finally together na sila ni Jin.. Kami kaya ng mochi ko,kelan?

"J-jungkook,are you okay?"

"I'm not hyung...not when I misses him like this...not when I needed him like right now..and not when I love him but can't be with him"

How long do I have to cry like this? How long do I have to wait for the right time to get him back? How long do I have to hide and gathered some courage to face his Papa? Bakit kailangan hadlangan nila kaming dalawa? A-ano bang nagawa naming mali? Kasalanan ba kung nagmahalan kaming dalawa?

W-wala ba kaming karapatan maging masaya sa isa't-isa? Bakit hindi nila kami matanggap? Bakit kailangan siyang ilayo saken? Bakit?!

"Dude,pasensya ka na wala kaming magawa para ibsan kahit paano ang dinadala mo ngayon'

'No,this is not your fault Yoongi.. The blame is all on me. Naging padalos-dalos ako.. P-pero sana hindi nila siya nilayo saken..Sana h-hindi kami pareho nasasaktan ng ganito,sana hindi kami nangungulila sa isa't-isa, sana hindi kami lumuluha ng ganito..hindi namin nami-miss ang bawat isa.. H-hyungs,Jas,am I not deserve to be happy? Am i not deserve to love?"

"H-Hindi Jungkook,don't say that. Everyone deserves to be happy and to love. Nagmahal ka lang naman,you just both fell in love at the wrong time..Hindi kailanman naging kasalanan ang magmahal. There's always a reason behind everything that's happening between you and Jimin"

"Pero Jas...was that reason have to be painful like this? The pain is slowly killing me..it hurts,too hurt to bear and too hard to just sat here and cry while doing nothing! I feel so useless, worthless and doesn't deserve anything!"

The situation makes me feel that I don't deserve Jimin as well! Ayoko ng maghintay dito...napapagod na'kong walang ginagawa. Tama na,ayoko na. Di ko na matatagalan pang hindi ko siya nakikita at nakakasama.