My eyes are wind open
I have faith in myself
I can do this
I'm going to do this.
FINALLY I'm taking the first step toward towards recovery
To my own happiness.
I'm going to ask for professional help.
Today was tough,
But this made me realise help is what I need.
I can't do this alone any more.
I'm finally allowing myself to experience the happiness and joy I deserve.
The pain,
The hurt,
the damage
it will slowly fade
it will take time
I know that,
But I'm willing to work as hard as I possibly can
Just to be happy.
It might take mouths
Maybe years
But being happy
Loving myself
Showing a real smile,
Enjoying life,
Living,
Its worth it.
I won't stop fighting until
The end.
until finally
I won't blame myself,
I will believe I'm the victim,
I will love my body,
My flaws.
Right now,
I'm so proud of myself,
I'm finally doing what I need to do to get better.
This just shows how much strength I have,
I'm not letting this battle win,
I will win the battle.
IM IN CONTROL NOW,
I hold the key to my happiness.
Today is day one of many more to come.
This isn't all going to be easy
But with the help of my friends,
My love
I will pull through each day.
The memories will never leave my heart,
But the pain, it will get easier,
I will be stronger,
My wounds will heal,
I will rise,
The words and actions of my past will no longer define me,
They will only make me a better person,
Stronger,
Wiser.
I will heal,
And will no longer settle being the victim
I will be the survivor.
This chapter is dedicated to @tonart.
Me finally accepting I need professional help is because of you, you made me realise that I am worthy of life, recovery and happiness. You have been here for me every step of the way. You have cheered me up, made me laugh and smile when it seemed impossible. I will always be greatful for everything you have down for me. You have a massive heart, which is made of gold. You're not only one of my best friends your also my older sister and the strong bond we share will never be broken.
I love you sis, so much
Forever and always by your side
Ps check out her book 'Because of you' that book is WOW.
Gabby
I also need to thank my other awesome friends
@jenny_a93 @Lovato_chick @roodyy96 @belleannaquinn
@nicknemidemi @unicorn2book @ohsnapitzxdemi @rachel461
@justemiprobs @blah45 @demi_bluevato20
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