You where apart of me,
My older brother
My rock
My sanity
My partner in crime
My friend
But most of the person you showed my love.
You would hold me
Wipe away my tears
Comfort me
Protect me
I would cry in your arms
You would hold me for hours
Never once hurting me
I loved you
I loved you so much that every word every action I believed
I remember the times we would play basketball
Watch the football
Sat on the couch and you would just hold me
When I was scared you would hug me tight
Letting nothing hurt me
When I cried you told me you would never leave my side
I trusted you so much
You where the one I turned to
Your words played on my mind all the time
All my being, my faith was in your hands
You where my protector
You kept me happy
Made me smile
Every day You would make me trust you more and more
Never did you yell at me
You where like a dream
A perfect dream
I felt blessed to have you.
That all changed
Every promise
All your words where lies
You hurt me
You changed me
You broke the trust
The brother I loved so much hurt me
Left me broken
Alone
Ashamed
Disgusted
You would hold me
But never did I feel the same
I cringed at your touch
You hands on me felt wrong
Your cuddles felt dirty
Every part of myself felt wrong
I felt dirty
Like a rag doll only wanted for your pleasure.
I cried myself asleep
No longer did I have someone to hold me
Comfort me
Since that first time you hurt me never have I felt the same
You took my life
My hope
My dreams
My love
My trust
Me strength
You hurt me
You destroyed me
The 4 years of pain defined me
Made me this person
I didn't just lose my brother
I lost my protector
My own life
My ability to trust
My passion for life
My dignity.
Why would you hurt me?
I was your sister
You where my world
Your words stay in my heart
The insults
The memories
They will never leave me
They are in my heart
Never gonna escape
You hated seeing me cry
But the pain you made me feel was so bad
All my tears where cried into my pillow
I left your room with a smile on my face
But inside I was broken
I was dead
Gone
My heart
My soul
Was escaping my body
I lost myself
The smiles the laughs
They where all fake
No one noticed
No one cared.
How could you?
You killed me
Made me feel so worthless
Ugly
Fat
Never will I look in the mirror and see beauty.
My life is dark
Sad
My world is pale
You took me the first time you hurt me
The tears never stopped you form getting what you wanted.
This is my life
Sadness surrounds
Because I trusted you
I loved you
I let you hurt me
Fear stopped me from speaking up.
My heart is gone
My scars remain
But never will I be that person you stole from me.
Your a thief
A Lier
But worst all you are no longer my brother
Your the monster that destroyed me.
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Feelings
No FicciónAs a victim of abuse, I've experienced a lot in my life. As a young teenager, I'm trying to understand the emotions I'm feeling and how to overcome the trauma I've had to go through. Through witting I'm able to be completely honest with myself and o...
