lasershire

alot of anxiety

Joven's pov

As soon as I saw the ones who assaulted me. I froze in fear. I started having flashbacks and couldn't breathe. But lasercorn brought me back.

I'm so glad I have him. I pulled out of our hug but I didn't want to let go. But I have to get over him at some point. Besides I have a date with EJ tonight. I cannot be thinking about another guy while out with him. That's just not right.

My mind trailed back to the tv. They caught 5 of them. But one is missing still. The thought of one of them still being out there scares me. So without thinking I hugged lasercorn.

He was so soft and nice to cuddle up to but reality set in and I pulled away again. He said "joven can we be friends from now on ? I gotta be honest I hate being so mean to you"

I smile "sure"...

A new friend that's awesome. Lasercorn my friend. Couldn't believe it. He insisted that I tell Ian and Anthony about the anxiety attack I had. But I didn't want to. I should be fine. We walked back into the office and everyone kind of looked suprised at us laughing at a joke lasercorn said.

Guess it makes sense. After all technically normally we are going at each others throats but today he's generally being nice. I even have hope that we are atleast going to be friends from now on. I still wanted more than that but he's straight so doesn't matter what I want as long as hes happy.

Mari looked suspicious "everything ok jovie ?"

I nodded my head "yeah lasercorn and I were just making jokes about how we thought Pam at the front desk and Steve the security gaurd were having some secret afair"

Lasercorn smirks "they are toatally hooking up. They look at each other with alot of lust"

Everyone nods in agreement. Just then my phone goes off. Its the police department calling "hello" I answered

The woman on the line said "yes excuse me Mr ovenshire. I am Lilly. I work the front desk here at the police department. We need you to come in and ID the attackers so we can make sure we have the right guys"

My chest aches. I don't want to have to see them again. I could barely handle seeing them on tv much less in person.

The woman on the phone insisted "sir we need you to come in soon today. Is that ok ?"

I remain speechless. I start shaking again. I am able to stumble out a few words "ok sure"

All of my friends look at me when they heard my voice catch. The woman hangs the phone up but I'm still trembling. Mari and Wes quickly run to my side.

Wes "woah woah woah. It's ok buddy. Tell us whats wrong"

I start having flashbacks again. I can't talk. The images playing in my head of me being held down by someone else alot bigger then me. It gets harder to breathe.

I am able to stutter out "lasercorn"

I don't know why. Maybe its because he calmed me down earlier. I just keep seeing images over and over again. Like a horror movie that won't stop.

Lasercorn runs to my side and starts rubbing my back. His touch calms me down a little. I hear his voice "hey jovie you gotta stay with me ok ? Tell me whats your phone number"

I am able to stutter out "555-642-1097"

I recite that over and over. He pulls me into a hug and I comeback to reality. I even start to beable to breath normal again.  I look around and see my friends staring at me with worry in their eyes. But honestly having lasercorn hug me made everything better.

I probably just embarrassed him. He pulls out of the hug and I'm fine again "thanks David. Sorry if I'm that was a little embarrassing"

All eyes on him as we all try and anticipate what he says. But he surprised us "its ok. You're my friend now remember. I hug my friends and I am there for them when they need me"

Everyone goes back to their desk.  Lasercorn asked "so what set you off again ?"

I sigh and explain "the police want me to come identify the five they caught. But idk if I can do it. Just seeing their faces on tv.. Well you saw what happened earlier"

Mari questions "what happened earlier ?"

I explain "I saw their faces on tv in the kitchen earlier. It gave me a panic attack. Like the one I just had"

Wes and Mari looked insulted. She asked "why didnt you tell us about that ?"

"It's not exactly easy to talk about. Besides lasercorn helped earlier. It was like he knew exactly what to do" I responded

They nodded in understanding. Lasercorn half smiled "I didn't do much. But anyways do you want someone to come with you. Maybe it will keep you calm long enough for you to identify them and leave"

"Would you ?" I questioned

He said "yes of course"

I sigh and get up out of my desk "I'll go tell Ian and Anthony so we can leave and get this done"...