lasershire

I hate loving him

Joven's pov

We got done filming a GTA video and I was especially annoyed because lasercorn is always mean when we get done filming videos.

It's like he's only friends with me on camera and then all nice ness goes away once the camera stops rolling.

Once we finished filming he kept bragging about his date and how he needed to hurry up and leave so he isn't late. I am so tired of hearing about his date because truth be told, I like lasercorn more than he will ever understand.

Lasercorn was still complaining about the time "ugh when is 8 pm going to come already. I have a date tonight and I don't want to be here anymore"

I finally get tired of listening to him complain "lasercorn shut up. I'm trying to write a script for our next video"

Lasercorn mocked me and said "you're just jealous because I have a hot date and you don't"

I rolled my eyes and continued typing up the script. I couldn't wait to leave because every time lasercorn mentioned his date, I hurt more and more knowing that I will never have a chance with him. Lasercorn insulted "that's right just stay quiet because you know I'm right. no one wants you"

Wes and Mari see my annoyed expression and give me sympathy looks because they know the truth behind my Annoyance.

I save what I have of the script so far and get up. I put my jacket on and walk out without any word. I was mad and very tired of hearing lasercorns mouth. I walk down the hall to my bosses Ian and Anthony.

"Hey can I step outside really quick, I need some fresh air" I asked them. They looked at each other and nodded. On my way out I see Mari and Wes running after me.

Wes said "hey are you ok ? I know he gets to you sometimes"

I shake my head. I feel the tears coming and I bolt for the elevator. I don't want anyone here seeing me cry. Mari and Wes follow me out into the parking lot. I sit on the curb and start balling my eyes out. Wes leans me up against him and Mari rubs my back. I say between sobs "it sucks so much y'all. it hurts me everytime he says stuff like that. He's always talking about the girls he's with and how I will never have anything like that. I just want to die sometimes because unfortunately he's right. I'm and ugly. No one in their right mind wants me especially not him"

Mari tries to cheer me up "hey that's not true. You are an amazing guy and you have a big heart full of compassion and love. Anyone would be lucky enough to be with you"

Wes adds "I swear I'm going to go kick that insensitive pricks ass"

He goes to stand up and I yell while holding him back "don't Wes ! you will be in trouble with Ian and Anthony and get fired"

He looks up at the building "well it's worth it. He needs to stop treating you this way"

I shake my head "no the last thing I'd want is for you to be fired because of me. Just stay please"

His face turns soft and sits back down with me. He huddles up against me again and I'm just glad that he and Mari are here with me. It makes me feel alot better. I finally stop crying and wipe my eyes.

Mari says "are you ok josh ?"

I shake my head "no I hate that I love him so much"....