lasershire

being nice

Lasercorn's pov

I walked into work this morning still reeling from last nights events. Can't believe those bastards did that to Joven.

Yeah I know I am not really the nicest to him but that's because if I am nice to him then I will get to know him better and I'll fall more in love with him than I already am. He doesn't feel the same especially seeing him and that bartender so close to each other last night.

So I make him hate me even though it hurts to make fun of him. Atleast in the long run I won't be heart broken. I'll lay off the mean jokes today because I can't imagine what he's going through.

I walk into the office with my orange hair a little messy still. I forgot to brush when I woke up. I sit at my desk and get my computer started up.

Everyone is talking to each other and Wes gets up and gets in front of me. He grabs me by my collar "lasercorn I swear if you are mean to Joven today I will kick your ass. He's been through enough. Not only will I kick your ass but I'll tell Ian and Anthony what I did because I give no fucks at this point and that's what I'm willing to do for my friend. Do you understand me ?"

Wow I have never seen him this aggressive before. All I can do is nod because he kinda scares me like this.

Wes sits back down. Everyone in the office was really suprised at Wes. I guess I deserve it though right.
Sohinki texted my phone "hey I know why you are so mean but honestly dude you should lay off of him. I heard someone say he was downstairs crying because of you yesterday because you're such an ass"

I made him cry. I feel awful. I never meant to make him cry. I feel a pit in my stomach. I feel bad. But I can't apologize because that will lead to me getting heart broken in the long run.

I text back "I never wanted to make him cry but also I can't lay off. He hates me anyways. Too late to turn back now"

He just shakes his head. I get up and walk out into the hallway to get a water from the vending machine. I run into Joven. He looks cute in his smosh games shirt. Before I know it words were comming out of my mouth "hey are you ok ? I wanted to apologize about being such an ass to you yesterday"

He flashes a smile on his face and it makes my heart race "yeah I'm ok. And thanks lasercorn that actaully means a lot to me"

He waves bye to me and and I am still very flustered by him. Ya know if he had been hurt alot worse last night and died. He would have died thinking I hated him. I couldn't live with myself ever if that had happened. Maybe I should be nicer to him.

I hate him hating me. Even though he doesnt love me the way I do him that doesn't mean I couldn't be his friend. In the end I just want him to be happy and hes not happy if I'm an ass. Ok its settled from here on out I will be nicer. I get back to the office and we all do our script writing and video planning. I edit a few videos and then lunch time rolls around and everyone piles into the kitchen. Me and Joven were the last two in the kitchen

"hi" hoping that he doesn't hate me

He sounded pretty happy "hey lasercorn. Whatcha eating"

Hearing his voice makes me happy "some ramen noodles. What about you ?"

I get lost in his eyes for a moment. They are so pretty.

"Turkey and cheese on wheat" he said while glancing up at the tv for a second.

Something seemed wrong now. He began looking pale and his breath faltered "Joven hey are you ok ?"

He fell and I caught him. He seemed scared of something. I look up at the tv and it shows 5 people who got arrested. There talking about what happened at the bar. Oh gosh poor Joven. I sit him down on the couch "Joven look at me are you ok ?"

I think he's having an anxiety attack "I feel my chest caving in. Memory flashes from last night. Its getting hard to breathe. About to pass out"

I panic oh god "no stay with me. You're ok. You're not there you are here ok. Remember. Trying doing your multiplication tables. it helps your brain think"

I am freaking out what do I do. Hes still frozen repeating over and over again "he's gonna hurt me"

He's begining to pass out again. What do I do. I grab my bottle of water and pour it on him. The cold water began to bring him back to now. His breathing went normal and then he stopped repeating himself. I didnt know what else to do so I hugged him. He seemed to melt into the hug and truth be told I did. No one else mattered in that moment....