The ups and downs of being Sapphie

Guilty Pleasure

I don't want to be your guilty pleasure
I won't just take any mete you measure
I see what is happening
I can't stay by your side
I won't just be along for the ride
You've prayed for something
And now you're not sure
How could you be so insecure?
It's fine, I expected it to hurt a little bit
I just had to admit
What I felt, what you knew
Everything I prophesied came true
The table is set
But yet you put a knife at your own neck
The other party is waiting for it to end
But you don't want it to, do you?
My heart, I will not lend
So many words shared,
So many emotions
Now, I will know if you truly cared
I will never be anyone's regret
When I can be someone's number one asset
Not a comfort, not a meantime
Not a possibility, nor a distraction
One part pain, another satisfaction
Let's hope distance makes your heart grow fonder
Because I think you may have a chance
Even though your indecisiveness makes me wonder
You tell me you trust me
But you only give me parts of you
While you hide the majority
Everything I say negative about you
You just concede
Instead of fighting for me to heal you
You prefer to stay cut open to bleed
I'm starting to think you like the pain
Or maybe I took your words too seriously
And the time we spent was in vain
Eventually time will pass
All unknowns will be revealed
I'll know either to be disappointed
Or relieved
For now I'll tough it out alone
You'll figure out how you really feel
My happy ending has been postponed
Apart of me is understanding and another part is mad
I never knew you'd make it this hard
Why did you have to be such a coward?

S. K. Malcolm