On My Own A Diggy Simmons Love Story Book 3

Chapter 60: I'm Not Ready

Diggy P.O.V

The fact that Elana is wearing glasses is confusing. The fact she is blind and deaf leaves me wondering what’s up with her. I peaked over my chapter book and looked at her.  I wanted to run over to her and shake her so she can realize that’s she killing me with all of this. I know I have to talked to her some how.

~~After School~~

Elana P.O.V.

Diggy gave me a headache. He kept trying to talk to me and sit next to me. Tristen ran off somewhere with Twist leaving me to wait in the park for her to come back. I pulled out a cigarette and started to smoke. After only taking one puff; I heard Diggy calling my name. Ugh…I don’t want to talk but at the same time I should listen at least. He walked to wear I was sitting and a little bit of frustration covered his concerned expression. I knew it was this cigarette. But I knew it was more to it than just that.

Diggy: Elana!

Elana: *takes another puff and exhales* Diggy!

Diggy: Why are you smoking?!

Elana: Why are you rapping?!

Diggy: Because I love too

Elana: Because I want too.

I watched him get more angered than ever. I knew I was getting under his skin especially mocking the volume of his voice. Why was I doing this? I don’t know. I just thought if I get him angry enough he would leave like usual. I continued smoking a cigarette as he stared in silence. His eyes were watering and I saw the tears. I turned away from him. I have a weak spot for him. Just seeing him in tears makes me feel sad. I turned back towards him to see his face now in tears. I put out my cigarette and looked at him.

Elana: What’s wrong?

Diggy: I just want you to stop hurting yourself. You’re blind, going deaf and you are smoking now. You left me and went somewhere else. I have no idea where you live or if you’re homeless or even doing drugs. You scare me and got me worried about you. If you need me I’m here. I’M RIGHT HERE!! *sobbing* Why do you keep doing this to me?! Why? *sobs more* I love you so much. No other girl can top you and I would never cheat on you; NEVER! I know you’re insecure. I know you can’t trust me right now. But I won’t ever hurt you because I love you babe!! Just come home…come home and I’ll do anything for you and I’ll be there for you. I’ll drop every thing and listen to your problems even if I’m in the studio. Just stop hurting us! You’re my other half and I need you *crying hard* I need you badly. Babe please *turning red as he sobs more*

I pulled him into a tight hug as he cried a little more. He looked up at me and I wiped his tears. He leaned in for a kiss but I pushed him away.

Diggy: Is this the end of us?

Elana: I guess you want to kill me *smiles* I’m not leaving you…

Diggy: Why don’t you kiss me then?

Elana: I just….can’t okay? *tears up* I’m not ready

Diggy: Alright. But promise you won’t shut me out. At least tell me where you live so I can visit.

Elana: No…you can’t know…anything. Just know that I love you. *sees chauffeur pulling up* I have to go *kisses his forehead lightly* Bye Diggy behave yourself at home.

Diggy: Elana wait! When are you coming home?

Elana: *gets in the car without answering*

That question was something I just couldn’t answer because I didn’t know for myself