On My Own A Diggy Simmons Love Story Book 3

Chapter 86: Contemplation

Iris P.O.V

I watched as the car pulled up to the driveway outside Khalil's house. He's finally home I smiled to thinking that. He got out the car without even smiling at me. I grinned and waited as he walked up to me. As I put my arms around him he backed away and looked at the floor.

Khalil: What are you doing here?

Iris: To come see you *smiles*

Khalil: Why? 

Iris: Because you're my boyfriend

I watched as his serious face turned into a laugh before smiling and laughing again causing me to be curious to know why he was laughing. 

Khalil: You think that you and I are still together? *laughs* can't believe Elana let you suffer like that. She knew this whole time that I was leaving you could at least gave you some kind of warning but oh well you know now so get off my driveway. 

The tears slipped from my eyes as he walked in the warm house while I stood out in the cold. I walked back to Diggy's and rang the door bell causing Elana to open the door.

Iris: I hope Diggy leaves you forever and you die alone. Your mom was right on trying to kill you because you are a demon child who doesn't belong here. You're ugly, fat, and right now you look disgusting. Everything that happens is your fault! No one likes you anymore! You're not even our friend; you're just an outsider. You should just kill yourself! Just kill yourself! No ones cares that you are trying to change. 

I brushed past her and walked up to my room. I looked back once to see her still at the door frozen like a mannequin doll letting the fresh cold air hit her face. 

Elana P.O.V

Mr. Shultz: Hey Elana meet me in the gym in about 30 minutes. 

He was going into another part of the house. I closed the door and walked into the bathroom locking it behind me. I opened the medicine cabinet and took out some random pills. I closed the medicine cabinet back and went to my room. I put the medicine on the lamp table and went to Diggy's room. I opened his door and came in fully. He looked up and I stared at him. He didn't say a word but continue to look at me. 

Elana: If I was to die...and this was my last time seeing you, I would cry; just because you made me happy even when I was sad. You are the only thing left for me to call mine because there is no one there. I just want to say sorry and thank you for everything.

I closed his door and went back to mine. I locked it shut and sat on the bed. I looked at the pills before popping them all open. I took one out of the pill bottles and held it in my hand. I don't understand why everything is my fault or how much I have changed. To be honest they over exaggerate everything. Yeah I know I have bad ways of making people understand what they did was wrong or I tend to holler and yell. But do they even realize that it was ME who made sure their relationships were good and it was ME who risked my life for Diggy, Tristen, and Iris. They make it seem like I ask for them to feel sorry for me when I don't. I just wanted them to be there for me like I was for them. Here I am about to kill myself over these people who don't care that they lower my self esteem everyday. They never cared about and never will. Once I'm done with treatment, I'm getting a job and finding me an apartment out in New York City. I'll be on my own and perfectly fine with it.

Diggy P.O.V

I walked into the gym where Elana worked hard at playing this basketball game that involve words that made you more confident like courage and hope. She didn't look to bad either. She had cleaned up super well and her skin was shining in the gym lights. I sat in a chair that was aligned in the wall and watched as she made hoops with the balls that had the words tape to them. She smiled at the therapist as he told her how good of a job she was doing.

Mr. Shultz: Who knew in 30 minutes you would start to transform into a determined person

Elana: Well to be honest...I was ready to die. Everything that everyone said to me was getting to me and something my friend Iris told me really pushed it to the extreme. Normally I would just shake it off but I have a low self esteem so I took all that she said to heart. It made me want to give up on everything because nothing seem to work anymore. Nobody wants to listen or even acknowledge that I'm trying. So now I'm at the point to where I move out permanently and get a job. I don't care if I have to work at McDonald's or Taco Bell; I'm leaving.

Mr. Shultz patted her on the back and continued writing down stuff as she shoot hoops. I looked down at my feet. 

Mr. Shultz well Elana you did a good job today and I will be back tomorrow. 

Elana: Can I keep playing this? 

Mr. Shultz: Sure as long as you want

He walked towards the door but looked at me first in surprise.

Mr. Shultz: Oh I didn't see you there Daniel well goodbye.

Daniel: Bye 

I smiled as he closed the door and looked at Elana who looked at me but continued to play. I got out of the chair.