Undertale Boiz Oneshots

Finale

I have written over a two hundred Undertale oneshots as of right now, correct? And each of them has been unique in writing style, character, and storyline. Right? 

The first book has over 25K views. This book has 4K views. That book had 200 parts and 20 were authors notes. This book has 65 parts and 5 were authors notes. 180 + 60 = 240. Two hundred and forty oneshots from me. I'd hate to admit it, but because of authors notes in my books I think the Undertale fandom has the most original works from me. Plus my three oringal books for lust sans, yanberry, and yandere Dream Sans. I also have an ask/dare book that will always be open. No matter what. For the Sanses of course.

But I feel pretty content with my work here. And I haven't been feeling content lately at all. I've been worrying, waking up crying, craving hugs and social interaction, missing my friends, and other things. This normally happens in the first month of summer. My gaming calls it Post School Syndrome Jokingly. 

It's not that I'm too busy. No no no. I always find at least the time to do one oneshot a day. Writing a oneshot, once I have the idea for a story, takes all in twenty to forty minutes. But that includes my spelling, grammar, and iPad errors. I just don't have the inspiration to write about this topic any more in oneshot format. Again, I still have the ask/dare book on my profile. I just feel done with Undertale oneshots.

I will still be doing ask/dare, I still will be commenting on Undertale books and reading, I just won't be writing oneshots. The phase is over. I've made it to the second book a fourth of the way. I feel content with what I have done and I am ready to move fandoms. I even have an idea at what my next oneshot book could be. Not Undertale though.

I know lots of you are screaming and crying and are like: "DONT LEAVE US EVA!!!" Yet I'm not leaving. You know when you have a creative spurt and it is gone or runs out? That's me with fandoms. And I'm just moving on to the next creative spurt in a new fandom. Maybe even one of my own original stories or another oneshot book. Besides, you shouldn't be thst emotionsll attatched to an attention whore anyways. I'm just a terrible person and you should know that by now. It's fine. I already know.

Those of you who are reading this and aren't ripping out your eyeballs thank you. Thank you for understanding and getting this far. Just for you, here's a small goodbye poem because I feel too sad and weak to write anything better. Way to go Evangeline.

There was a girl

With brown hair and girl eyes

With freckles And blackheads scattered all over her face

With extra flab and fat sticking to her body

With teeth so crooked and yellow she hates her smile

She hates herself

There was a girl

She was creative

She wrote stories and drew art

She was smart

She studied and got all A's

She was athletic

She played softball and did camps

Yet she hates herself

Everyone hates her

Everyone wishes she was dead

Except those forced to love her

And she clings to that

"Even if they're forced to love me, it's still love!"

Right?

Wrong.

It doesn't make it feel any better.

Everyone wants her to disappear

Everyone wants her gone

Everyone wants her to die

Yet she's still here.

How?

Why?

Because she has morals.

She believes suicide isn't the answer

Never

Never never never

She knows a handful of people would miss her

She isn't suicidal. She never even thought about it

This girl isn't depressed

She just hates herself

She has low self esteem

That isn't a mental disorder

It's a thought problem she can't fix

She isn't depressed

She has her family

Some friends

Good food

Good friends

Bad laughs

She has hobbies

SHe has writing

She has art

She has softball

She has love

She will carry on

Inspiration is fleeting for the girl

So she takes up the chance when she gets it

To try and make others happy

Not hate her 

For once

But when that inspiration leaves

In comes another one

And the whole cycle

Starts

Again

I hope that was a last story that a lot of you will treasure in this book. It wasn't Undertale related, but it was still a poem and I hope you enjoyed it. Again, I'm so sorry about this. My inspiration is just gone. I still love Undertale, just as I love all my fandomz, but the hype is gone for me.

I guess my user name makes sense to you guys now. Fandomz_Fangirl. Heh.  Making a pun about myself just screams attention whore.

That's all. I hope I got the point across. I'm sorry. Thanks for reading. I love you and hope you see each and every one of you in my other books.

~Eva