For those of you who don't know Ryan is my boyfriend and we're about five months into our relationship at the moment and things are great in the beginning he did ask me some difficult questions for him we started out as friends which I guess kind of helps build the foundation a little bit he asked me if him having autism affected my decision on us being a couple and of course I said no because in a lot of ways that's what makes him him and I know I'm not fully educated on autism and it's something I will and want to educate myself on and I know that relationships have an always lasted long for me majority apparently wasn't my fault but I felt it was an a lot of situations majority of them are cheated on me with some didn't even know they were in a relationship with me and a lot of them just didn't care when I first met Ryan it was freshman year and a English class he came in as the need people to use them I wanted to stand up that freshman year I was scarcely shy and I didn't know I had a voice until I met my best friend but a part of me that he was really cute and the other part of me was telling me you're going to get rejected don't go for it it wasn't until sophomore year summer night is that I found out that he wanted to ask me out but instead I went with Michael's big mistake and I thought he was so out of my league and I was scared to make a move however I called him staring at me a little bit which is nice I was really skeptical at first too because I thought my flaws or deal breakers the acne and being toothless has made me really self-conscious I asked Ryan if it was a dealbreaker he said no. of course not you don't have any laws there's nothing you can say that would turn me away from this and that was really sweet we do have our moments where we play fight and argue but honestly Id take play fighting like this over actually fighting fighting with Michael you only thing that's kind of strange in a couple of ways is that Michael and Ryan were like best friends and it wasn't a re bound thing it kind of just happened Michael admitted that Sierra was a rebound which wasn't really a surprise considering they started dating supposedly dating three days after me and Michael broke up but I want to get this out there I broke up with him A couple of my friends actually preferred Ryan over Michael some disagree the relationship is just starting he gave us about a year or two as what he says we'll see how that goes but me and Ryan and then more things together what kind of that me and Michael of ever done with Michael I have the relationship for a while and it lasted about a year supposedly almost to you but whatever anyways I went to prom with the rain I'm going to the watermelon thump queen parade with Ryan and hopefully Jill really hoping Joe comes and we're planning a movie date so I'm seeing Ryan outside of school more than I ever saw Michael outside school which I never did so this is the major improvement Ryan is sweet nice caring and he's got this weird way of making me smile nice I don't see him as weird or difference or whatever you want to say he's just a good kind of different in the best way of course I say this in the best way possible I'm trying not to be too corny with this i'm happy to me he may not come to school life he came to weeks in February he was here for Valen times day that was great he has done some nice gesture toward me he's working on some gaming thing for us right now and he wrote a song for me on my birthday so sweet and funny and a little corny but I love it no Ryan does have this other girl in his life who meant a lot to him and her name is Logan now I don't know her but I've seen a picture of her wing wall a couple years back may not of been a recent picture but regardless it's pretty Ryan is always been a real Casanova apparently from what I've heard from his family and I don't know her so I can't say anything about her but again from what I've heard she sounds really sweet Ryan even said that me and her should talk that she's like me that she's already said that I'm pretty and I know Ryan's not want to lie to me about those kinds of things and i'm glad that she had her in his life I can't change it I don't want to change it he knows that I would never cheat on him I know he would never cheat on me right now things are great with you have her on and off days but as of right now everything is perfect it's really great to see him outside of school but there were those moments this year when I needed him but thankfully my sister was there everything is great
