So yesterday was a great day my day is usually great I've got a pretty great schedule this year I'm very lucky but as of now it's starting out to be a great year but yesterday in my 4th period my teacher was playing music as we made our name tags and the song he played was love me like you do and that's my bf and this important girl in his lifes song and I was bummed out bout it I know she's not here but he calls her the love of his life and he's with me but I've had a bf taken from me before for a similar reason but to be fair it helped push me to break up with him and it was good but I don't want to lose Ryan yes he's a pain but I still love him but I love my sister more anyways so I get out of my 4th period and I get a text from him where are you in like I'm heading up to D hall to have lunch and he dident answer at the time I was talked to Jill but once I sat down the connection dropped stupid WiFi and it hung up and she said she called but it dident ring they don't make since to me and ways I sat down and look up to see my bf and I'm like shouldent you be in class he's like oh ya I have blunch now I'm like really ?? He's like I wanted it to be a surprise and I'm like it is wow and I'm like how tho and he's like don't worry bout it and I'm like no tell me he's like I switched my schedule around snd it let me to change me lunch and that's all your getting I'm like ok for now .... afterwords he walked me to class actually correction I dragged him with me to my class well past my class I almost went to my 6th period thanks Ryan and yet I was still on time yes I'm happy I have Ryan for lunch but it's not the same without Jill I don't have my person here but st the same time I do I can't talk to anybody eles the way I talk to Jill it's strange but this experience makes me realize how attached I've become that more me then her have become to each other it's hard not having her here but I know she's just a text/ phone call away but even that's not the same and I just feel alone and lost I swear I can hear her walk the halls sometimes and I start laughing st somthing snd I look around to see if she's laughing too but she's not around I've even caught myself talking to myself as if she's right next to me I know it's only the begging and I know it will get easier but it will still hurt my other half isn't here and I'm surrounded by idiots just an adjustment I know I'll get it
