Ryan and I are doing great right now it took s long time for him to understand the relationship between me and my sister it took a whole crying session for him to understand the relationship between us and lately I've been seeing him more slightly but to see him at all outside of school is rare so I'm thankful I'm trying not to let anything cloud my judgement with me and Ryan aside from my family not liking him there are some things that he could improve on but he's got so much to offer he's a real sweetheart and he's trying he is it's just taking some time for him to learn my patterns he don't quite know how to help me when I need him and I hardly know how to help him but I'm getting close with his family his parents his brother his half sister his niece they like me and his friends too when I'm in the hallway with him I want to hold his hand but I'm self aware of the fact that he could end up not coming to school again and I get questioned where's your bf thought u had one saw you with this one guy and I'm not ashamed of him but when he comes back out of the blue and he's been gone for a couple weeks or days it's hard to adjust to it and while I wanna show him off he don't show me off but I guess we're trying to work together on thdt and I know it's not his fault he don't always come to school I want this relationship to work but I'm fixing to graduate and I don't want anything to happen to me and Ryan I'm tryin to fight for this and I think thdt as of now we are doing better
