So yesterday my boyfriend got a little up set bc he's been wanting to spend time with me outside of school and he's asked if I could go over to his house and for me to ask my dad but he don't understand the how much of a terrible idea that is bc he's like you need to ask him it's like no I'll get in trouble and if you ask I'll be in even more trouble and he's like well how the f*** are we suppose to see each other and I broke down and started to get upset and he was really up set and then he's like what are we gonna do disner and I asked if he don't get to see me before school starts in 2 weeks if that's a turn off and he's like well kinda I want to see you and he's like it's hard on me not getting to see you and I know it's hard on you too and I broke down crying and he's like I'm sorry disner I dident mean it I dident mean it I'm so sorry disner and it took s couple mins but I stoped and we talked and I told him for the millionth time that I love him and I want to make our relationship work but I can't even my sister without pushing the envelope just a little and it works but it don't always work it's so annoying and I wish he saw it that way but with in this next year I'm hoping to be driving so he can't complain we don't see each other and he will be 18 in January so we will see but when I get my lisence it will be just me and Jill for a little bit but I will make time for him too and then the day before he asked me if I was threatens by his ex love of his life and I said well I understand I will never have that title in your life and I know she's important to you but remeber your with me I'm your gf I've already lost a bf to an ex gf and I'm not letting that happend again so in a way yes I am but at the same time I'm not bc I've talked to her and she's really nice and we have a lot in common not too much but enough to be cool around each other but there's somthing bout him I can't shake I don't want to lose him and I don't plan too bit he's gotta learn good timing and to be nice he says that I mean a lot to him and I'm like I dident know I meant THAT MUCH ! To you and he's like you do mean a lot to me disner I know it don't always seam like it but I do and that made me smile I'm just hoping for the best and fighting for this relationship
