Its been a while anyway so high school really tested me as its suppose to but some things ive been through
A weird incounter in meeting a best friend of 4 years , dental identity crisis , chesting, lying, manipulating ex boyfriend ,harrasment ,axiety , learning issues, temper issues tward those in my past and so much more...
So much i wish i did and so much more i wish i didn't and not just within my life choices people i once cared for . joining a hospitality club that didnt fully exist yet being non existant to the club about a year after maybe even less , losing my temper to ass hat michael and losong my office aid position yetvhe kept his job and he was the issue . i regret not standing up to my ex michael when he was bring greedy and rude tward my friends at the time i regret not being more involved in my school snd not making some sort of mark to help me build chsracter in myself , i regret the relationships i was in romaticly yet greatful that despite the people i dated it led me to learn my worth and my voice and knolage of a safe communicative relationship wirh my current boyfriend nathaniel i am letting go of it all yes high school sucked more times then i can count but i feel it only made md stronger
Going into high school i was worried about being an outcast the same as i felt at my middle school the quiet shy push over who was nosy over sensitive and felt alone yet i made a friend in a elevator who i basicly told my life story to in a mader of 2 hours i regent not focusing on my studdies and more on relationships i regret notenjoying my senior year despite my friend not being there with me i regret not speaking up and following my own path insted being led down insted of leading for myself there is so much i wish i could chsnge yet throigh all of that ive still managed to see the good in those who have wronged me and those who have heled mr everyone always told me im the one that sees the good in everyone yes thats true i am a happy person and i know that can beannoying but its who i am i believe in the impossible i believe in hope and karma and love 20 years of disney will shape that atleast in my case i am the not perfect but im trying to be and show the good in those i love snd be the best virson on myself i csn be
Im not a push over im not a scared little kitten that needs saving im me and i want to fly hih in being me and tske care of myself snd love myself i am beautiful and creative and crazy im a swan i will soar to my hearts content snd continue to see the good in those i love sns embrace who i sm amd look fear in the mirror amd say i am free from the guilt and pain of my past snd be ME the best me i csn be and no one no one is tsking thsy from me
Rn im lonely honesty speaking but im spending time with myself im lisening to music as i drink a couple glasses of water im manifesting and im taking care of mtself i am learning that its ok to tske some time for myself imsted of always puttimg my friends over me i feel like i dobt know how to spend quality time with myself snd for me that means sitting outside to write wstching my favorite movies lisening to music and being proud im things i like in music snd otherthings i dont like conflict i know i cant escape it ans i csnt fun from it bit i can learn how to handle it and if and when i find a friend with who i csn be myseld and be able to share comman intresrs and be able to communicate and hopefully a lobg lasting friendship that will be a blessing rn i need to be me and get reaquanted with myself and be me snd be grestfuk for my sweet family boyfriend and say hakuna matata i dont wsnt to worry bout things i csnt control i am in control
