alot has been happening for one i dont have a phone at the moment well a working one at least and thats ok most would say im addicted to it and they'd be right its a problem ive always had im bored out of my mind but i am grateful i have other motives of connecting to the internet . not having a phone that works is also why i haven't been on you tube lately but i do miss it im finding myself talk as if im in front of a camera which isnt too weird for me but still feels werid the break wasn't intentional it just happens been since about last Wednesday feel a litte insane i do have my boyfriend 9 mounts toghether he and i are adjusting to this time phone works enough for us to talk which is great hes been so understanding and calm which is helping me stay calm not too much of a big deal we just love talking and hanging out with each other and im use to talking to him most of the day but i am so greatful for him hes been a real sweetheart and i love him so much
not much eles has really been happening a bout a mouth ago me and my former youtube partner officially ended on a better note i reached out to end on a better note it had been bothering me how things were left and i feel better that we are on better terms its still hard not having her in my life but its better this way were both doing some soul searching and finding ourselfs without eachother but at least we know we can share a kind word if we end up bumping into eachother which is good i dont really have anyone eles that i really talk to no one from high school or friends where i currently live and thats fine but i do have my boyfriend which is always great i enjoy his company and we always have the best conversations always has me laughing and thats all i need i need a job no luck with that just yet then again ive stoped looking for right now im trying to find what i am good at what i am passionate about something i love doing and can see me doing or working toward within the next 10 years things are kinda in the air right now but i am optimistic and excited for the future i still feel like myself happy and weird im still me last night we had a thunderstorm it knocked out our side of the streets power i was so bored but i did enjoy the quiet im not use to being alone i dont like to be alone im use to having people a friend around me its what i know and i do have my family but i do find myself wallowing at times not knowing what to do feeling lonely but then i journal about the things i do have myself , meaning my health my joy in the little things that make the day fly by my experiences my family that loves me and helps me a respectful loving boyfriend a starting and following on youtube and the people that may not be in my life but started me on a journey on a story that i want to write for myself and i smile and laugh at it all happily and couldnt be more grateful reminiscing on the things and experiences that i have made me stronger
over all i am ok just doing what i can do right now i do want to go back to you tube buy right now that not the case couple more days hopefully i am hopefully getting a new i phone yayyyyyy cant wait and no i know what your thinking its not the 11 i actually am hopefully getting the i phone Se not the newest but i dont need a major upgrade im happy enough to have a phone with features im use to i dont need a phone with 3 cameras its basically the last 4 phones ive had mixed into one phone and il talk more about that in upcoming videos
for now thats the update thanks for reading
