lasershire part 2

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Damiens pov

I was laying in bed and replying to tweets from fans. I heard shayne stumble into the house with his drunk ass. I get up and walk downstairs "Shayne what the fuck ? It's 2 am. you may have wanted to go drinking but you could atleast quiet down"

I am still very mad at him. he kind of just slurs incoherent scentences "Burb Lers have sox"

he wants to have sex. not happening. he starts rubbing my shoulders and kissing my neck. I say "no"

he whimpers "why not ? Don't you love me ?"

I roll my eyes "I do love you but you are too drunk and I am still very mad at you for not going on a date with me"

he pokes his bottom lip out "you are always mad at me. what's new ?"

I grumble back "well you choose alchohol over me all the time. It's like you love beer more than me"

he rolls his eyes and starts to walk upstairs "not this again"

I yell "no you are sleeping on the couch with your drunk ass. keep a bucket by the couch encase you have to puke"

I spin him around and pick him up and place him on the couch. I go to leave and go back to my room and shayne said "well if that's how you feel then why are you even still with me ?"

I scream back "because I fucking love you shayne topp !"

he yelled back "sure you do ! If I amm so bad then  just leave !"

I feel my heart break at those words "if that is what you want then consider me gone"

I run upstairs crying. I grabbed my suitcase and start packing. I don't have much. I will come back for the other stuff tomorrow. I am so done with Shayne. I don't know where I will go but I am damn sure not staying here. I let all of the memories of the past 5 years come rushing in and put them behind me. I was finally able to stop crying. I grabbed my greenday CD and my car keys and walk out the door with shayne passed out on the couch.... 

I drove around till I got tired. I made it to this bridge over a highway full of oncomming traffic. All of my thoughts are driving me. the only person that loved me was sohinki and I ruind that. I ruin everything. I would be better off dead. I normally wouldn't even think like this but tonight is the exception. I have had it. I dont even know who my real parents are so it isn't like family is keeping me tethered here. 

I pull my phone and make the last video I will ever make "dear everyone. My life is shit. just because you get internet fame doesnt mean it makes you feel any better. My love life is  wrecked. Shayne and I just broke up. I am homeless and don't have anywhere to go. to all of friends, if you miss me then just remember I will always be there with you. to the true love of my life, I love you with all my heart. Everytime you hear a greenday song, think of me"

I sent the video to my friends and ex lover. I sat at the edge for a while. I wanted to enjoy life one more time. I look down and open my arms out wide. I fall just as an 18 wheeler was coming closer. I waited for death to come.........