lasershire part 2

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Damiens pov

Its now been a week and a half since Mari was put in her coma by her fall. My friends and I have been so worried about her.

Joven told all of us what her dad said. She hasn't woken up yet and the deadline is comming up.
Mari is one of my best friends. Everyone at the smosh office are my best friends. Losing one of them is like losing a limb.

I feel the sadness and tears coming back for the 15th time this week. Shayne is at the store getting some food so he won't be here for a while.

The only thing that comes to my mind now is "where are my razors ?"

I know I shouldn't but when I used to cut was the only time I could make pain go away quick. I ran upsatirs to find them. I saw them under the sink in the upstairs bathroom. I locked the bathroom door just encase shayne came home. I don't want him to see me like this.

I took my pants off and I started cutting as the tears began to flow. At this point there was a puddle of blood and tears on the bathroom floor. With every cut came the realease of my emotional pain. I was actually able to to stop crying.

I finally got up and cleaned up my wound. I put a bandage on the fresh slices and cleaned up the puddle of blood. This really brings a whole new meaning of putting your blood and tears into a place. I finally put my pants back on. I heard shayne open the front door to our house and I quickly cleaned the razors and put them back where I found them. I flushed the toilet to make it seem like I was just done using the bathroom.

I walk downstairs and put on a smile "honey I've been missing you" I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him on the lips.

He kissed me back and I felt great after that. I finally pulled out of our kiss and grabbed the bags of groceries from his hand.

He walked into the kitchen with me and he and I started putting the contents of the bags up. He asked me "so what did you do while I was gone"

I lied "oh you know I just watched tv"

I looked back and saw he was checking out my ass while I was putting something in the fridge. I smirked "like what you see"

He laughed "baby you know I always love what I see when it comes to you"

I smile at his comment. I walked slowly over to him and put my hands on his hips but he asked me a question that made me turn white as a ghost "I noticed something when you were bent over. Your pants leg went up a little and I saw a new scar. Where did that come from"

I didn't know what to say. I tried to come up with the best lie I could think of but nothing was coming out. He asked me with a serious voice "is that an old scar or have you been cutting again ?"

He was trying to make it seem like he wasn't judging me but I knew he was dissapointed. The night I tried to kill myself  I came home that morning and we talked forever. I told him about the cutting and I promised him I wouldn't do it again. I've clearly broken that promise with more than just the cuts I did today.

He gives me a look that says "well ?" I can't find the words so I just stay honest for once "yes I have"

He gives me a sad look and then he walked over to the kitchen table "baby..... Its because of what's going on with Mari isn't it ?"

I nod silently trying to avoid his gaze. He got up and walked over to me. He grabbed my right hand and put it up to his mouth and kissed it. He then pulled me into a hug "baby please stop hurting yourself like that. It hurts me to see you do it" he softly said while comforting me

I feel his dissapointment on me like an anvil on my chest. It makes me feel even worse. I just start crying into his shoulder "I'm sorry. I screw up so much. Why are you even with me?"

He patted me reassuringly "I'm with you because I love you Damien. Stop putting yourself down so much. We are only human. Remember that I have screwd up so much that if someone had a file on how much I have fucked up that there would be a million filling cabinets"

The image of a whole warehouse filled with filing cabinets made me laugh. I've finally stopped crying again. Shayne saw me laughing and said while starting to tickle me "there's that smile I like so much". Now he and I are on the floor laughing and I'm trying to fight off his tickles "stop that before I bite you"

He finally stopped and Salem pranced up. He rubbed up against me and did his meow. I smile and pet talk "someone must be hungry"

Shayne and I get off the floor and I go feed the cat. While feeding him the house phone starts ringing. Shayne picked it up "what?!? She woke up ?" Shayne yelled

I ran into the living room. I knew what that meant. Mari was awake !.....