lasershire part 2

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Flitz pov

Today all I did was talk to my lawyer. he said there was a good chance to prove that Catherine was lying. He made me have hope and that was something I was severely lacking. 

things have been bad. I have gotten so many death threats on twitter and people say rude things when I am out in public. I feel like everyone who has ever called them self a fan has turned their backs on me. It breaks my heart to know that peoples faith in me have been broken. 

Cathrine is ruining everything that I have worked for. One stupid night with that girl and she is ruinning my life. I felt the world closing in on me and felt my chest get tight. It was hard to breathe. I squeezed my chest tryinng to breathe. I was having a panic attack. I needed air.

 I bolted out of my bed and through the house then ran out onto the porch. I felt the oxygen returning for a moment and was able to calm down. I was still shaking. I was so preocupied with what was going on that I hadn't noticed courtney was walking up to my porch. I said harshly while catching my breath "what do you want"

She looked sympathetic but I don't believe her considering the mean things she said to me last week. She said while looking down at her feet "I um- I wanted to say I am sorry"

she then asked me trying to change the subject "are you ok ? you are shaking"

I rolled my eyes "like you care. you called me a rapist like a week ago and now you are acting like my friend again"

she finally looked up at me "you're right. I am really sorry Flitz. You're my friend and I turned my back on you when you needed me the most. I hope you would consider forgiving me"

I still felt on the fence about forgiving her. She hugged me "you're shaking. I know how that goes. panic attacks are hard to deal with"

I hugged her back. I actaully think she was being sincere. I said "I forgive you"....

Courtney and I talked for hours  till it turned 2:00 in the morning then she left. I was happy to know my friends had my back on this. I walked into the house and back to my room finally. I plugged in some head phones and sat down and started working on some music. My phone was lighting up like crazy. It was twitter notifications. 

I can only assume it's more people telling me how much of a horrible person. I was wrong though. It was actaully people defending me. People still had hope in me. I am so happy to know not everyone thinks I am a bad person. I put my phone down and had a new determination. I started writing some songs talking about this whole mess. people need to hear my side  on this....